Well it seems as though people dont understand you until its too late. I got this friend and he always thinks that he's ontop of things and that he's number 1 in whatever he does. He had this situation a few days ago and I tried to give him advice and be like 'Dude what you're doing isnt cool' we ended up getting into an argument and I got pissed and walked away thinking that he's an asshole. Honestly he is and he really wasnt much of a friend, he was one those friends that your friends with when it suits you best. Thats what he was. Well lets just say that I found out that his girlfriend of 2 years dumped him over this situation. What an asshole.
As for Anthony and my mom, things are going great. The only arguements I hear from them are the last and final things that they'll have for the wedding. Its finally coming all together. I honestly cant wait for them to be married. They make the coolest couple I know. Seriously. And best of all I really like Anthony, he's the best thing that has happened to this family since my mom divorced my dad and broke the engagement off with Dave. Anthony is seriosuly one in a million and he cant be replaced.
Kelly, ugh, I dont even want to go there today. She is the same bitchiness skank whore on the face of this planet. Next topic.
Michael has been changing his ways around. He's starting to do better in everything he puts his mind to. School he's been getting C's instead of F's, so thats a big turn around for the kid. He's been working on his car, thats his new hobby. I think he might want to go for auto installation. He just installed a stereo in his car and said that he really enjoyed doing it.
Keillie is still the same loving, caring, honest, sweet, out-going, brave, trustworthy etc, 6 year old I have ever had the pleasure of being there for 24/7. She is worth all my time and energy in everything that I do.
My job, well lets have the updates please. The girl Amanda who was in the office, she's still there, she's doing a lot better and actually knows what shes doing now. The other guy that we had in our office quit cold turkey on us. Cold turkey, thats such a funny phrase. So my boss hired a new cashier, actually two new cahsiers. I got to pick the new person to come up in and join us in the office. I picked Jasmine. Yes, she's intellegent and I believe she will catch on and I will have a lot less problems that I had with Amanda in the office. As is we're trying to get Amanda out of the office as soon as I train Jasmine. Amanda has just been getting on my nerves since the day she started in my office. Ugh, I cant stand her.
As for me, lastly, there isnt much really different going on with me. I just had to clean off both my trucks since we got a fucking blizzard. I'm just thankful that I didnt have to clean off my cars. In the winter I keep my cars in the garage and my trucks outside. And in the summer its the opposite in the garages. Although I do use my trucks in the summer. Just not all the time. I like to be sporty and shit in the summer and more conserved in the winter. Hey when its the summer guys will play.
Well thats all the good juicy topics I have here for you today.
Todays Qoute:
"It is true, however, that it is not customary to pull down all the houses of a town with the single design of rebuilding them differently, and thereby rendering the streets more handsome; but it often happens that a private individual takes down his own with the view of erecting it anew, and that people are even sometimes constrained to this when their homes are in danger of falling from age, or when the foundations are insecure. With this before me by way of example, I was persuaded that it would indeed be preposterous for a private individual  to think of reforming a state by fundamentally changing it throughout, and overturning it in order to set it up  amended; and the same I though was true of any simialr project for reforming the body of the sciences, or the order of teaching them established in the schools; but as for the opinions which up to that time I had embraced, I thought that I could not do better than resolve at once to sweep them wholly away, that I might afterwards be in a position to admit either more correct, or even perhaps the same when they had undergone the scrutiny of reason." - Rene Descartes

Its Dora lol. That show is so cute. Keillie was watching it before. Well I dont think that you will have the random songs of the every day living that you have come to enjoy so much but I will be posting something more a lil more intellectual.
Something that will make you sit back and think. Yesh. I dont know, I'm just kinda of bored lately, theres nothing to do. I'm just been kinda sitting home and hanging out with friends all the time, and pretty much the whole vacation off from school.
My mom and Anthony have been non-stop working and planning for this wedding. I'm kind of sick about hearing so much of it. They ask me what they think, and I'm just like whatever.
I'm out now, cause I'm bored and I think that I'm gonna be going on off to bed now. Peace!

"I revered our theology, and aspired as much as any one to reach heaven: but being given assuredly to understand that the way is not less open to the most ignorant than to the most learned, and that the revealed truths which lead to heaven are above our comprehension, I did not presume to subject them to the impotency of my reason; and I thought that in order competently to undertake their examination, there was need of some special help from heaven, and of being more than man." - Rene Descartes

Ahh it feels good to be back everybody. As you well know my computer went down the crapper. As a result of it I tried to fix that peiece of shit but nothing worked. Well I lost all my files and shit and yea that was really good. I got a new computer that I brought from a cumpter show and its great I love it like you wouldnt believe. Not much has been going on since it crashed and since that I got this one up and running. Everything has pretty much been the same. Time for your randomness selection of the day, night, afternoon whatever this is.

One Last Time By: Eminem Chorus: Cause we came here to set this party off Right let's bounce tonight And if they don't let us in through the front We'll come through the side Cause I don't ever wanna leave the game Without atleast sayin good-bye So all my people on my left All my people on the right swing one last time Get ya ass up for the doctor One more time get ya ass up for the doctor Come on here we go cliff hanger It's another club banger got ya hangin on the edge of ya seat Get on down Verse 1: Time's up game's over you lose I win Bout to show these knuckleheads how to do this here Ooh yea new year next phase begin Look who's got you goin crazy again I'm a trend I set one everytime I'm in I go out and just come back full circle again You a fad, that means you're somethin that we already had But once you're gone you don't come back Too bad you're off the map now, radar can't even find you We stay on the grind you slip we out grind you You walk around mad you let your anger blind you We walk around just playin the violin behind you Enough with all the pissin and moanin, whinin and bitchin Sittin observed, listen you'll learn if you pay attention While 10 multi-platinum albums lay the three diamond World wide we on the charts with a bullet we're still flyin Chorus Verse 2 The buzz is tremendous we drop you all just sense it I don't gotta promote it for you to know the Doc is off the benches We keep the party rockin off the hinges We ain't showin off, we just goin off popular concenses But critics say the Doc is soft, Doc is talk The Doc is all washed up knock it off Who the fuck is Doc impressin Doc is this Doc is that you got the wrong impression You must be on the cock of Doc cuz Doc left you all guessin So DJ take the needle and just drop it on the record We gonna have this mothafucka hoppin in a second Thats why we always save the best cut last To make a scratch and itch to it like fresh cut grass Cause we just playin with the sharks wrestlin with alligators Spoke to a generation of angry teenagers whom if it wasnt for rap Embraced the gat or maybe raised to be racist who may have never Got to see our faces, graced the cover of Rolling stone pages Broke down barriers of language and races, just call on the Cape crusaiders and leave it to me and Dre to pass the mic And we can play the back and forth all day like the hot potatoe game Thats why we Chorus Cause we came here to set this party off Right let's bounce tonight And if they don't let us through the front We'll come through the side Cause I don't wanna ever leave the game Without atleast sayin good-bye So all my people on my left All my people on my right swing one last time 50 Cent come on! [Verse 3] [50 Cent] Bounce now hands up you know how we do We make the club jump everywhere we go It's no secret everybody know when Dre's involved There's plenty money involved [Dr. Dre] And plenty honies involved and sunny sunday's and palm trees Cali everyday is just another party from the vallies All the way to them 8 mile alleys [Eminem] Let's ralley hands up for the grand finale now raise up your seat Dre's about to speak blaze a pound of weed six days about the week [Dr. Dre] You can catch me in the studio bangin out the beats to Provide you with the heat that keep blazin out ya speaker [Eminem] So never say never cuz Shady Aftermath together Along with G-Unit records presents the return of the The Doc and Shady no one can do it better We tear the club up and leave without a shred of evidence of the [Chorus- Eminem] Outro Still Aftermath 2006 And don't worry bout that detox album It's comin, we gon make Dre do it Ha ha 50 Cent, G-Unit, Obie Trice, D-Twizze Stat Quo, Dr. Dre we ain't leavin let's go

I have been working on new beats and shit for the group. Why you ask? I dont know why. Today will be our last rehearsal until next semester. I'm pretty sure of that. Maybe I'm working on all this shit to get ahead and have more time to spend with my friends, family and my daughter? Yea lets go with that. lol. Honestly, besides the whole friends and family thing I just want to get it done lol.
My mom is still working like crazy on this wedding. Good news for her, shes almost done planning. I'll give her about another 2 or 3 months of planning and then she will be totally finished. So that in all in a good thing.
As for myself and christmas shopping, I dont know. Keillie has such a long list this year. I'm not sure if i can get her everything that she wants. I mean theres only 1 week till christmas. (I'm counting christmas eve lol I'll have to do last minute shopping) Thats insane. I dont know what it is with this year. Everything is so late, or just not enough time. I already got my mom, sister, brother, aunt, unlce, grandma and gramps all done with. Now its only myself and Keillie. Which she's harder of the two. She wants brats, coloring books, PS2, Xbox, <--shes only getting one!--> barbie, bored games, a new bike, one of those little hummer trucks for kids, stuft animals, tickle me elmo (she lost hers on vacation) a spongebob stereo (among other spongebob and rugrats things) tapes and cds, the new disney movies that came out, theres more but i cant remember everything she wants. lol. thank god she wrote "Santa" a letter, and what a mighty long letter it was. lol.
Well I guess thats all for now. Time for my goofy side to come out in a song:

Just Lose It
By: Eminem

Intro:
Ok.. Guess who's back? Back again Shady's back Tell a friend Whaaaaaaaa Now everyone report to the dance floor To the dance floor, to the dance floor Now everyone report to the dance floor Alright Stop!.....Pajama time

Verse 1:
Come here little kiddies, On my lap
Guess who's back with a brand new rap?
And I don't mean rap as in a new case of child investigation accusation
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
No worries, papa's got a brand new bag of toys
What else could I possibly do to make noise?
I done touched on everything, but little boys
That's not a stab at Micheal
That's just a metaphor, I'm just physco
I go a little bit crazy sometimes
I get a little bit out of control with my rhymes
Good God, dip, do a little slide
Bend down, touch your toes and just glide
Up the center of the dance floor
Like TP from my bumhole
And it's cool if you let one go
Nobody's gonna know, who'd hear it?
Give a little "poot poot", it's OK! [Fart Sound]
Oops my cd just skipped
And everyone just heard you let one rip

Chorus:
Now I'm gonna make you dance It's your chance Yeah boy shake that ass Oops I mean girl girl girl girl Girl you know you're my world Alright now lose it (HA-HA-HA-HA-HA) Just lose it (HA-HA-HA-HA-HA) Go crazy (HA-HA-HA-HA-HA) Oh baby (HA-HA) Oh baby, baby (HA-HA)

Verse 2:
It's Friday and it's my day
Used to party all the way to sunday
Maybe til monday, I dunno what day
Everyday's just a holiday
Crusin' on the freeway
Feelin' kinda breezy
Got the top down, lettin' my hair blow
I dunno where I'm goin'
All I know is when I get there
Someone's gonna "touch my body"
Excuse me miss, I don't mean to sound like a jerk
But I'm feelin' just a little stressed out from work
Could you punch me in the stomach and pull my hair?
Spit on me, maybe gouge my eyes out? (Yeah)
Now, what's your name girl?
What's your sign?
[Dr Dre] "Man, you must be up out your mind"
DRE! (HA-HA)
Dear God goes blind!
I'm just tryna unwind now I'm

Chorus

Verse 3:
It's Tuesday and I'm locked up
I'm in jail and I don't know what happend
They say I was running butt naked
Down the street screaming
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Well I'm sorry, I don't remember
All I know is this much
I'm not guilty
They said, "Save it, boy we gotcha you on tape
yellin' at an old lady 'touch my body!'"
Now this is the part where the rap breaks down
It gets real intense, no one makes a sound
Everything looks like it's 8 Mile now
The beat comes back and everybody lose themselves
Snap back to reality
Look it's B.Rabbit!
Yo you signed me up to battle!?
I'm a grown man!
Chubba chubba chubba chubba chubba chubbie
I don't have any lines to go right here so, chubba teletubbie!
Fella's (WHAT?!) Fella's (WHAT?!)
Grab you left nut, make right one jealous (what?)
Black girls
White girls
Skinny girls
Fat girls
Tall girls
Small girls
I'm callin' all girls
Everyone report to the dance floor
It's your chance for a little romance whore
Butt squeezin' it's the season
Just go (HA-HA-HA-HA)
It's so appealin'

Chorus

Outro:
UmMmMmm touch my body UmMmMmm touch my body Ooh boy just touch my body I mean girl just touch my body

All i gotta say today is the drama, its all drama. All i heard yesterday was about D and her drama with her friends. It was more like her friends drama between themselves. Oh yea, who knows when they are gonna get that shit together.
Yesterday at the rehearsal wasnt too bad. We got some stuff done, and others we didnt even bother doing. Its coming along real hot though. Yes. That is true, ahoy. Damn it D you got me saying AHOY! so yea. I guess I'm out for now. PEACE!

Drips
By: Eminem

Intro
Obie, Yo?
I'm sick
Damn, you straight dogg?
Coughing
Bitches Getting sick

Chorus:
That's why I ain't got no time For these games and stupid tricks All these bitches on my dick That's how dudes be getting sick That's how dicks' be getting drips Falling victim's to this shit From these bitches on our dicks
Fucking chickens with no ribs That's why I aint got no time

Verse 1:
Yo,
I woke up,
fucked up off the liquor I drunk
I hadda bag of tha skunk,
one and last night's tunk
Pussy residue was on my penis,
Denise, from the Cleaners
Fucked me good,
you should've seen us
Big booty bitch,
switch unbearable,
french role styling,
body like a stallion
Sizing up the figure,
while my shit getting bigger
Debating on to fuck her,
do I wanna be a nigga
Caressing this bitch,
plus I'm checking out them tits
Sipping on that fine shit,
I ain't use to buying
I gotta hit it from behind,
it's mandatory
Like taking ho's money,
but that's another story
For surely your pussy on toast,
after we toast
Our clothes fell like Bishop and Juice
The womb beater,
clean pussy eater,
inserting my john
In that spot hotter than the hottest block,
don't stop!
Response I got when I was knocking it
Clocks steading ticking,
kinky finger licking
The cannon,
seen us at my temple when she moans
I gotta slow down before I cum soon
And work that nigga,
like a slave owner
When I dropped off my outfit,
she knew I wanted to bone her
She foaming at the lips,
the ones between the hips
Pubic hair's looking like some sour cream dip
Without the nacho,
my dick hit the spot though
Pussy tighter than conditions of his black folks
Being a vinyl stretched,
the last part of sex
I bust a fat ass nut - then I woke up next
Like, what the fuck is going on here?
This bitch evapourated,
pussy and all just picked up and vaccated
And now I'm frustrated cause my dick was unprotected
And doctor Wesley telling me I ain't really got that shit
Fuck

Chorus

Verse 2:
Now I don't wanna hit no women when this chicks got it coming
Someone better get this bitch before she gets kicked in the stomach
And she's pregnant,
but she's egging me on,
begging me to throw her Off the steps on this porch,
my only weapon is force
And I don't wanna resort to violence of any sort
But why's she shoving me for?
Doesn't she love me no more?
Wasn't she hugging me four minutes ago at the door?
Man I'm this close to going toe to toe with this whore
What would you do if she was telling you she wants a divorce
She's having another baby in a month and it's yours
And you found it isn't cause this bitch has been visiting
Someone else and sucking his dick
and kissing you on the lips When you get back to Michigan,
Now the plot has thickend 'n worse
Cause you feel like you've been sticking your fucking dick in a hurse
So your paranoid at every little cold that you get
Ever since they sold you this shit,
you've been holding your dick
So you goto the clinic,
sweating every minute your in it
Then the doctor comes out looking like Dennis the Menace hahahaha
And it's obvious to everyone in the lobby, it's aids
He ain't even gotta to call in you the office to say it
So you jet back home,
cause you gone get that ho
And when you see her,
you're gonna bend her fucking neck back yo
Cause you love her,
you never would've expect that blow
Obie told you to scoop,
how could she stoop that low?
Jesus, I don't believe this bitch works at the Cleaner's
Bringing me home diseases swinging from Obie's penis
She's so deceaving,
shit this ho's a genious
She gee'd us

Chorus

As they say 'do onto others as you would have them do onto you.' Well thats what I tell Keillie to do in school. She has done that so far, until yesterday that is. A boy in her class was making fun of her, now as I tell her, 'someone makes fun of you do it back but 10 times worse.' <- in other words they fart on you, you shit on them. Yes I tell her that. So she does it, I know its no way to solve a problem but you know what? The boy left her alone, lol. Yes he did. Hey thats the way the ball bounces. I'm raising her to be tough, but a lady, a young tough respectable lady. Thats what she is, her adult personality comes out more and more each day and boy does she show it. Shes gonna be another me. :) That is good in a way and bad in another. But I think she knows that some of the things that daddy does is wrong and that she shouldnt do them. So I think that she will be just fine growing up.
Well my mom is still going around like a crazy mad hatter with the wedding plans. Although also she is still renovating our house and boy is that fun. My room should be next, then Keillie's room will be last. My mom will then start to re-renovate the downstairs. Some of the things she's leaving and others shes changing. When we bought this house, all the rooms and colors were pretty much the same. A lot of browns, oaks, beiges and whites. Its all the same. My mom is a very colorful person and loves a lot of color. So shes changing the room colors and some furniture into colors. Of course shes making the living room a really nice white diamond color. The whole room is going to be white diamond. She really likes that color. Esp since she bought her truck in that color. :D
Ummm...I guess thats how the slicer slices meat today. I'm out! PEACE!!

Superman
By: Eminem

Intro:
I know what you wanna hear...

Chorus:
'Cuz I know you want me baby I think I want you too... I think I love you baby...I think I love you too...I'm here to save you girl, come be in Shady's world, I wanna gorw together, let's let our love unfurl, You know you want me baby, You know I want you too, They call me Superman, I'm here to rescue you, I wanna save you girl, come be in Shady's world...oh boy you drive me crazy...Bitch you make me hurl.

Verse 1:
They call me Superman,
Leap tall hoes in a single bound,
I'm single now,
Got no ring on this finger now,
I'll never let another chick bring me down,
In a relationship, save it bitch, babysit? you make me sick,
Superman aint savin shit, girl you can jump on shady's dick,
Straight from the hip, cut to the chase,
I'll tell a mo'fuckin slut to her face,
Play no games, say no names, ever since I broke up with what's her
face,
I'm a different man, kiss my ass, kiss my lips, bitch why ask?
Kiss my dick, hit my cash, i'd rather have you whip my ass,
Don't put out? i'll put you out,
Won't get out? i'll push you out,
Puss blew out, copin shit,
Wouldn't piss on fire to put you out,
Am I too nice? buy you ice,
Bitch if you died, wouldn't buy you life,
What you tryin to be, my new wife?
What you Mariah? fly through twice,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come, they go,
Saturday through sunday monday,
Monday through sunday yo,
Maybe i'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe...

Chorus

Verse 2:
Don't get me wrong,
I love these hoes,
It's no secret,
Everybody knows,
Can't we fuck?
Bitch so what?
That's about as far as your buddy goes,
We'll be friends,
I'll call you again,
I'll chase you around every bar you attend,
Never know what kind of car i'll be in,
Woman Screaming
We'll see how much you'll be partying then,
You don't want that,
Neither do I,
I don't wanna flip when I see you with guys,
Too much pride,
Between you and I,
Not a jealous man, but females lie,
But I guess that's just what sluts do,
How could it ever be just us two?
Never loved you enough to trust you,
We just met and I just fucked you,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come they go,
Saturday through Sunday monday,
Monday through Sunday yo,
Maybe I'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
'Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe... 

Chorus 2x

Verse 3:
First thing you said...
I'm not phazed,
I hang around big stars all day,
I don't see what the big deal is anyway,
You're just plain ol' Marshall to me...
Ooh yeah girl run that game...
Haily Jade...I love that name,
Love that tattoo...what's that say?
'rot in pieces' aww that's great...
First off you don't know Marshall,
Add also, don't grow partial,
That's ammo for my arsenal,
I'll snap you off that bar stool,
There goes another lawsuit,
Leave handprints all accross you,
Good lordy-wody you must be blown off that water bottle,
You want what you can't have,
Ooh girl that's too damn bad,
Don't touch what you can't grab,
End up with two back hands,
Put Anthrax on a Tampax and slap you till you can't stand,
Girl you just blew your chance,
Don't mean to ruin your plans,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come they go,
Saturday through Sunday Monday,
Monday through Sunday yo,
Maybe I'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
'Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe... 

Chorus

Yea today is going to be another boring day in the Joanson history. Well as usually, I have to go to class and its gonna suck mad ass today. I really dont want to go to my first class. Its this type of computer thingy and I have a really annoying professor, that i seriously hate. She just gets on my nerves. So anyway. After that i have a business class which is pretty good, i enjoy that one. And of course i have my Philosophy class, which is my last class of the day. The one day besides wednesdays that i see Dora. Which is all good, you know. I really dont care one way or another. I dont see her as much as we used to hang out, but that was a while ago. When we had rehearsals every saturday. Which that got a little annoying.
My mom is going crazy with her wedding plans. Shes fucking flipping out because the assholes didnt do her flower arrangements right the first time like she had asked them to. So yea she's flipping out on that one. Talk about bridezillas!
The only thing that is really happening today is my daughter. Thats about as much excitement as I'm gonna see today.
Well my wonderful bloggers I'm out for today. Theres not much else to talk about. Cuz like i said its gonna be a pretty boring day. PEACE!

My Dad's Gone Crazy
By: Eminem

Intro:
Tuning Tv Eminem Snortin Crack

Tv Presenter:
Hello boys and girls Today we're gonna talk about father and daughter relationships Do you have a daddy? I'll bet you do (Door opens) who's your daddy? (Hailie: Daddy, what're you doing?)  Haha Ok then! everybody, listen up!  I'm goin to hell, who's comin' with me? (Somebody, please help him! giggle i think my dad gone crazy!)

Verse 1:
There's no mountain i can't climb
There's no tower too high,
No plane that i can't learn how to fly
What do i gotta do to get through to you,
destroy you
There ain't nothing i can't take this chainsaw to
Hailey Makes Chainsaw Sound
Fuckin' brain's brawn, and brass balls
I cut 'em off, i got 'em pickled and bronzed in a glass jar
Inside of a hall,
with my framed autograph,
Sunglasses with elton john's name,
on my drag wall
I'm out the closet, i been lying my ass off
All this time, me and dre been fucking with hats off
(Suck it marshall)
Tell laura and her husband to back off
Before i push this motherfucking button and blast off
And launch one of these russians, and that's all
(Hailie Makes Explosion Sound)
Blow every fucking thing, except afghanistan on the map, off
We wanna stop, we wanna knock the crap off
(Knocking)
Haley, tell 'em baby 
(My dad's lost it)

Chorus: 
There's really nothin' else to say ha, i can't explain it (I think my dad gone crazy!) A little help from hailie jade would, should tell them maybe (I think my dad gone crazy!) Theres nothing you could do to save it, could ever change me (I think my dad gone crazy!) There's noone on earth that can save me, not even halie (I think my dad gone crazy!)

Verse 2:
It's like my mother always told me
(Eminem Impersinates His Mom)
Rnrnrnrnrnrrrr, n codeine n goddamit, you little motherfucker
If you aint got nothin' nice to say then don't say nothin'
Er..Fuck that shit, bitch, eat a motherfuckin' dick
Chew on a prick, and lick a million motherfuckin' cocks for second
I'd rather put out a motherfucking gospel record
I'd rather be a pussy-whipped bitch, eat pussy
And have pussy-lips glued to my face with a clit-ring in my nose
Then quit bringin my flos, quit giving me my ammo
Can't you see why i'm so mean?
if y'all leave me alone, this wouldn't be my ammo
I wouldn't have to go eenie meenie minie mo
Catch a homo by his toe,
man i don't know no more
Am i the only fuckin one who's normal any more?
Dad

Chorus

Verse 3:
My songs can make you cry, take you by surprise
And at the same time, make you dry your eyes with the same rhyme
So what you're seeing is a genius at work
Which to me isn't work, so it's easy to misinterpret it at first,
Cuz when i speak, it's tongue in cheek
I'd gank my fuckin teeth before id ever bite my tongue
I'd slice my gums, get struck by fuckin' lightning twice at once
And die and come back as vanilla ice's son
And walk around the rest of my life spit on
And kicked and hit with shit, every time i sung
Like R. Kelly as soon as "bump n' grind" comes on
More pain inside o' my brain, in the eyes of a little girl inside of a plane
Aimed at the world trade, standin' on ronny's grave,
Screaming at the sky, the clouds gather as clyde mathers and bonnie jade
And nash briddy musta just stop it
Parents are pissed,
but the kids love it
Nine millimeter, heater's desk, and two-seaters with meat cleavers
I don't blame you,
i wouldn't let Hailie listen to me neither

Chorus

Outro:
Crazy
laughs
You're funny daddy!

That she gives up all hope on being with me and that i dont care. Its not that dont care, i do honestly. I care a lot. I just dont want to do something that I'm not comfortable with doing. And moving in with someone before I'm married, I'm not comfortable with doing. Cause then I'll never get married. A few kids maybe but never marriage. Thats just the type of guy i am. Thats why i need to be married first and foremost. If I'm not married, then theres nothing holding me into living with someone, I could just go and do what i do now. Not come home until 2 or 3 am. She wouldnt be my wife so there be no reason to get pissed at me. I just dont understand why people do it. But thats just me. Besides i though that she wanted to go to college in a different state that wasnt New York. So its different if she wants to spend holidays here with me, like in a hotel or something and then go back to college. Thats totally different than living with someone. You know, I mean, do you get what I'm trying to say here? I dont even think i fully understand it, but i know what I'm saying. Just trying to make Amanda understand me also. Just hopes she does, I'm not who she thinks i am in some aspects. What i might say i could or would do, i might not do when it comes down to it. Im other aspects I'm exactly who she thinks i am. Grant it if she hits me repeatly (meaning more than 7 times in a row or in the same arguement) i WILL hit her back, i wont deny that. I have hit women before because they have hit me repeatly. I wont say I'm proud of it but thats also something that i cant help sometimes. I try to hold it back for as long as possible but it doesnt happen all the time. Thats the same with other things. Like my partying, I love to party for one, and that part of my life I'm not going to change unless I'm married. Being married you have to change certain aspects of your life and that would be one of them. That also goes along with the drinking to. If i party 3 times a week, then i drink once a week or maybe twice a week. But that, to, would have to be cut down. I think of it as you either take the person how they are or you dont. You love them for who they are and you respect them for how they are. I, for one, love Amanda for who she is, the good and the bad, and i repect for how she is, again the good and the bad. Hopefully she will read this and maybe understand a little bit more of what makes me tick and how i am.

Amanda I love you, I always will.

Drug Ballad
By: Eminem

Verse 1:
Back when Mark Walhberg was Marky Mark
This is how we used to make the party start
We used to mix Hen' with Bacardi Dark
And when it, kicks in you can hardly talk
And by the, sixth gin you're gonna probably crawl
And you'll be, sick then and you'll probably barf
And my pre-diction is you're gonna probably fall
Either somewhere in the lobby or the hallway wall
And everything's spinning
You're beginin' to think women
are swimming in pink linen again in the sink
Then in a couple of minutes that bottle of Guiness is finished
You are now allowed to officially slap bitches
You have the right to remain violent and start wilin'
Start a fight with the same guy that was smart eyin' you
Get in your car, start it, and start drivin'
Over the island and cause a 42 car pile-up
Earth calling, pilot to co-pilot
Look at the life on this planet, sir, no sign of it
All I can see is a bunch of smoke flyin'
And I'm so high that I might die if I go by it
Let me out of this place
I'm outta place
I'm in outer space
I've just vanished without a trace
I'm going to a pretty place now where the flowers grow
I'll be back in an hour or so

Hook:
'Cause every time I go to try to leave
Smething keeps pullin' on my sleeve
I don't wanna, but I gotta stay
These drugs really got ahold of me
'Cause every time I try to tell them "no"
They won't let me ever let them go
I'm a sucka all I gotta say
These drugs really got ahold of me

Verse 2:
In third grade, all I used to do
Was sniff glue through a tube and play rubix cube
17 years later I'm as rude as jew
Scheming on the first chick with the hugest boobs
I've got no game
And every face looks the same
They've got no name
So I don't need game to play
I just say whatever I want to whoever I want
Whenever I want, wherever I want, however I want
However, I do show some respect to few
As ecstacy got me standing next to you
Getting sentimental as fuck spillin' guts to you
We just met
But I think I'm in love with you
But you're on it too
So you tell me you love me too
Wake up in the morning like "yo, what the fuck we do?"
I gotta go bitch
You know I have stuff to do
'Cause if I get caught cheatin' then I'm stuck with you
But in the long run
These drugs are probably going to catch up sooner or later
But fuck it, I'm on one
So let's enjoy
Let the X destroy your spinal cord
So it's not a straight line no more
'Til we walk around looking like some wind-up dolls
Shit's sticking out of our backs like a dinosaur
Shit, six hits won't even get me high no more
So bye for now
I'm going to try to find some more

Hook:

Verse 3:
That's the sound of a bottle when it's hollow
When you swallow it all wollow and drown in your sorrow
And tomorrow you're probably going to want to do it again
What's a little spinal fluid between you and a friend? Screw it
And what's a little bit of alcohol poisoning?
And what's a little fight?
Tomorrow you'll be boys again
It's your life
Live it however you wanna
Marijuana is everywhere
Where was you brought up?
It don't matter as long as you get where you're going
'Cause none of the shit is going to mean shit where we're going
They tell you to stop, but you just sit there ignoring
Even though you wake up feeling like shit every morning
But you're young
You've got a lot of drugs to do
Girls to screw
Parties to crash
Sucks to be you
If I could take it all back now, I wouldn't
I would have did more shit that people said that I shouldn't
But I'm all grown up now and upgraded and graduated
Did better drugs and updated
But I've still got a lot of growing up to do
I've still got a whole lot of throwing up to spew
But when it's all said and done I'll be 40
Before I know it with a 40 on the porch telling stories
With a bottle of Jack
Two grandkids in my lap
Babysiting for Haley while Haley's out getting smashed

Hook (2X)

Well i was at work yesterday and this person comes up to my desk at customer service/bookkeeping and hes like 'do you have any specials running? Like discounts?' I'm like 'the only special we have running is that there has been a lot of car accidents recently and we dont give discounts we're a law firm, we maybe cheaper than others or more expensive than others but you have that right to choose who you would like to be representing you in the long hall' I'm like dude its a fucking law firm we dont give out fucking discounts, we are not a supermarket or a mall or a candy store or a fucking motherfucker. get it got it good.
As for the rest of my life. ugh. Dora is bitching because she was saying that some bitch fucked her over. I'll kill the bitch. NO ONE messes with my best friend. I'll fucking kill the bitch. She told me the whole story and from what happened thats seriously fucked up aight? If she was a real friend that would have never have happened in the first place. I have had a problem similar to that one but i fucked up that person, and trust me it never happened again. You dont fuck with AJ, cuz AJ will fuck you up and thats all that there is to it.
I'm just a little pissed today. But hey thats okay. It was all made up and done for when i picked my daughter up from school today after i got out of school for me. If that sentence made any sense at all. She was so happy, with that smile on her face i just couldnt help myself but to be happy with her. I would do anything for her to see her smile and laugh and giggle and just be a happy 6 year old. Shes my world. Just dont fuck with Dad!

Luven Me
By: Nelly

Verse 1:
Ay yo ma,
how you doin,
it's ya son now
And I picked up the mic and put the drugs down
Now I'm tryin to do some things that'll make you proud
Instead of everytime I call it's to bail me out
Oh why didn't I listen to things you used to tell me
Knowin that everything that you said would never fail me
Like 'they got plans for ya
Ain't nothin I can do when them laws get they hands on ya'
But I ain't listenin,
even payin attention
I'm just tryna get mine
Takin advantage,
you would get two jobs at the same time
Ungrateful,
complainin about Nike and Polo signs
But you always come through,
and what do I do
I wreck both ya cars,
stole money from ya drawers
Sold dope out ya yard,
stayed into with them laws
Tryin to pay you back for all the stress that I caused
And always be there to give you whatever you want

Hook:
Don't stop ever lovin me Uh, uh, I said whatever you need Don't stop ever lovin me Uh, uh, I said you don't have to worry no more Don't stop ever lovin me Uh, uh, uh, 'cause ya son will be there for you Don't stop ever lovin me Uh, uh, uh
  
Verse 2:
Now verse two,
yeah that's for you boo
I send ya props 'cause you the only one that stuck through
When I'm upset and stressed you give me back rubs
When I'm depressed you give me head off in the bathtub, E-I!
On ya P's and Q's, on ya Q's and P's
You hear my beeper goin off and you just throw me my keys
Ain't even askin me yo is it coochie or G's
And for that reason now you can ask me for anything
Not a for real smoker but you choke with me
Not too hot about the drinkin but you toast with me
Livin at ya granny house you kept the dope for me
And wouldn't hesitate to go to court for me
Need money, my boo'll go and work the avenue
My boo'll fuck you up if I ask her to
That's why I do the things I do
And I will always be there to give you whatever you want

Hook

No i dont feel like adding the last verse of this song so fuck it aight!

~AMANDA~

Well first off I'm kinda worried since i haven't heard from Amanda in almost a month. Hope shes okay. Wonder where shes been and all that good stuff. so yea. I know that she has a lot of crap going on with her life right now. She also wants to come and be with me when she turns 18 but as of right now thats not looking so good. We have no place for her to stay in the house. I mean yea this is a huge 12 million dollar mansion but we only have/had one guest room. Since Keillie has moved in permatley over the past 3 years we no longer have a guest room. We were fixing it up so she was staying in with my sister. My brother has his own room and of course there is my own room. Anthony will be moving in with us since him and my mom are getting married. So it will be merging both houses together. Oh the fun that will be. I'm gettig off of the topic here. So yea we wont have any room for her. I dont know what she expects me to do or what she expects. But i guess we will cross that boundary when it comes right?
Robby has a new girlfriend and guess who it is, Holly. Yes the Holly from the group. Oh this should be good right? I cant wait. Once they break up---if they do break up- not saying i want them to but you know what I'm saying- we will need a new backup/straight up singer. So yea. Cant wait to see where this is going to go.
Thats the big part of my news today. There isnt really anything much else to talk about. Oh yea there is one other thing that i forgot to mention and thats this:
All i know is that Eminem just stole the words right outta my mouth with his new cd Encore and his song "Puke". He just stole the words right outta my mouth about the way i feel about someone. But I'm in such a good mood today that I'm not even gonna touch on that one. Peace!

N Dey Say
By: Nelly

Intro:
Yeah, Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah, Let's Go

Chorus:
Ha ha ha ha ha ohhhhhhhh N dey say ohhhhhh ohh ohhhhhhhh Ha ha ha ha ha ohhhhhhh N dey say ohhhhh ohhh ohh

Verse 1:
Hold up stop now let me get a look at ya,
Damn girl I ain't seen you since prom,
Come to think about it I can't believe its been that long,
I heard your man locked down now how long he gone.... Oh dat long
How the hell he get time like that?
Three strikes with possession, aww he ain't comin back,
He left you with 2 kids and bills all around,
Plus you found out he had another chick cross-town,
It's always the darkness right before the sun rises
And you gotta stay strong for the kids in their eyes and
Please don't despise and go against all brothers and
have a hatred in your heart and take it out on another,
I hate to sound Tupacish now momma but keep your head up,
But you gon' make it I promise you keep your head up
And that, that don't kill you only makes you stronger
And the will to succeed will only feed the hunger, Fo' Reel (Fo' Reel,
Fo' Reel)

Chorus

Verse 2:
I was at the gas station and a man walked past
With his sign will work for food, clothes or cash
and he asked if he could pump my gas, so I let him
Clean the windshield and throw out the trash, so I let him (Hey)
I even asked a brother his name, where he was from, got kids man and
what's their ages
He kinda stuttered for a second, he kinda looked surprised that anyone
would even take an
interest in his life
He said young brother dem the only words I done heard in the last year
that wasn't no
or get the fuck away from herrre
How could somthin so simple as general conversation
Mean much more than general conversation? (Hey)
You could tell life had beaten him down
Like he was in the title fight and this might be his last round
Sometimes the easiest things we take for granted
Until they gone, then realise we even had it, Fo' Reel (Fo' Reel, Fo'
Reel)

Chorus

Verse 3:
I used to think that life had a plan for me
Until I realised life had to be planned by me, see that's the key
I only deal with what I can see cause over history, mystery brought us
nothin but misery
Man more people done died in the name of the lord
Than in any natural disaster, disease or gangwars
Before guns there was swords and they was killin each other
and what's changed to this day still killin each other
Killin a brother while another mother cries for help
Man! we need to help a brother find themself
Feed em light 1, 2, 3
Hey! that's something every brother should see and that's Fo' Reel,
and that's Fo' Reel, and that's Fo' Reel

Chorus (3X)

Do you guys think that i really did shoot myself? no i didnt as you can tell. i just kinda wish i could just get away from it all. somehow someway, anyway, anywhere. i dont know but i got things to do, people to see, places to go, child to drop off you know all those good things that go along with being the father i am.
well my mom is still physco as ever. i swear ill be happy when its all said and done. oh but wait theres the whole factor that Anthony is in the mist of selling his house. Yep, he's selling his multi-million dollar mansion. that means he'll be moving into my moms house her 15 million dollar mansion, and then their bank accounts go together meanwhile all this is in the mist of them finishing up the pre-nup. which my mom needs esp since she has the greater bank account jumping. yea my mom is rich yo, isnt that the important thing? nah not really money aint nothing but a luxury. although my bank account is jumping, its getting there with 300 thou! and with my recent 3 paychecks that should bring it up to 400 thousand! yea baby! im speaking in all seriousness now. i'm not just joking for all you haters. I'm dead serious.
well i guess thats all for now im outs. PEACE! and remember i love all those LADIES!

Paradise
By: Nelly

Hook:
She said her name was (paradise) Thats what she said to me She said (paradise) Thats what she said it would be Cuz she, the finest women that ive ever did see And not to mention how she looked in them jeans She said her name was (paradise) Thats what she said to me She said (paradise)
Thats what she said it would be Cuz she was, the definition of a ghetto queen And you should see that apple bottom in jeans

Verse 1:
I met her on a sunday
She walkin down the runway
Fi fly
So fine what the fuck im gon say
And i just sit imtiently just waiting my turn
Waiting for my perfect chance so i can spit out my words
I think she openly spokenly damn i hope she notices me
Hopefully she go for me
So she on the boat with me
And ima take her places she can never imagine
Like water ski'in in costa rica
With snow mobiling in aspen
She prefare the cold
Winter, snow
And do shit like the tropical
Am i dreamin let me know
Tell me is it possible
That i could be the one she in search for a man
And she could be that one that end my search for romance
No time to slack now, act now, ima bout to crack now, i put my rap
down, mack down,
Aint no turning back now
I got the this feeling that she feelin the same
About to end this feeling games and just ask her her name

Hook

Verse 2:
So the next day monday
Im riding down the freeway
Hit her on the 2 way
Im like what you doing tuesday
She said that she was free anytime after 3
And every second after that will be reserved for me
I said thats good to know say no mo'
Ill be there around 4
Around 4 that fo' do
Phantom at your front door
You can take it for a ride
Keep it in papas sake
Debate it at fate and the
Reservations at 8
And after dinner, shampagne, walks along the beaches
With the moonlight shines on ya
And i cant create the words to explain myself
My temtation to feel ya body
Temtation to kiss them curves
One kiss two kiss she all on my neck now
Three kiss four kiss im all on her neck now that
Temperatures rising
Hips and thighs coming
Hynotizing man i dont wanna stop
It feels like

Hook

Verse 3:
They dont understand me because i really dont understand myself
I cant live with out (my girl)
Paradise is mine mayne
Anywhere and time mayne
She gon hold it down cuz she (my girl)
She love me she love me not
She love me to be on top
She love daddy to spank her cuz she (my girl)
And if you got ne doubts just ask when you see me out
Ill tell you who im talken bout
My Girl

This is a little something i wrote because all the shit my mom is complaining about with her wedding and this is just my way of dealing with it.

As though it seems,
my mom cant help to be on of those bridezillas.
ugh i just cant stand it anymore.
shes gong crazy with all of it.
and to think im the one staying in this hell hole
while she tries to figure it all out.
what to do?
im going insane,
i gotta get out and find a place to stay.
but for what to have more bills and shit i gotta pay.
im better of living at home even though shes a bridezilla.
although i see an out in all of it,
stay at a friends,
they'll take me.
party all night sleep all day.
thats always the way.
become the future of an owl.
what about school?
gotta go,
gotta get the education.
so i gotta get up,
i gotta truck it,
i gotta get to school somehow in the morning.
wake up,
get dressed and a quick eats
then hop in the truck and off to school
one less place no to hear the zilla
oh but wait
when i go home i hear it
a few hours later
she'll be home
planning and planning
bitching and bitching
when will it end
*gun shot*

I'll Be The One
By: Dru Hill

Intro:
I'll be the one I'll be the one

Verse 1:
I heard a rumor there's a vacancy Somebody said he put you down Seems he found pleasure in some other girl Baby, he's dogging you around So now yhou're looking for a special guy Someone that you can call your boo A man that cares about your feelings girl A man to just be good to you
Well

Chorus:
I'll be the one making you feel alright I'll be the one doing the things you like I'll be the one keeping you up at night I'll be the lover in your life I'll be the one you're gonna wanna call, yeah I'll be the one making you climb the walls I'll be the one gon' have you beggin' me I'll be the one, the one you need

Verse 2:
You gave him seven years of your life To think about it akes you cry Why don't you come with me I'll make it right Let's bump that nigga outta your mind Let's take a ride baby, no special place, yeah Somewhere where we can be alone, hey Take off our clothes and let our feelings flow I wanna groove you all night long I'll be the one

Chorus

Verse 3:
Here's the thing you should know about me, yeah Jazz is the man when it comes to ladies I know what I want Baby I'm keepin' it real, said real babe Ain't no him now that you're with me That's the way that it's gotta be
If you're down, then be down Don't be playin' around with my heart, oh no I'll be the one

Chorus

Outro:
I'll be the one I'll be the one

the most drama i got today was off of D because something fucked up/with her tblog and yahoo accounts and now she can no longer get into them. which sucks donkey balls. it does suck for her because she liked that account, it was just her.
well as for my mom she has the main aspects of her wedding planning done. meaning the table dinners and middle settings, center peices, where she wants the wedding (yes she has changed that but the date is still the same) she has hired a DJ for the day already. shes having the reception and wedding in the same place so her 200 guests dont have to travel. she has all that planned out already. now all she has to do is plan the rest of it. Anthony is a good helping out of this, he's really into it. which he should be, its gonna be his big day as well.
as for my sister, Kelly, she re-invents the phrase of "dumb blonde". shes the inevitable dumb blonde. i guess hopefully she'll grow out of it. do women or men, some men can take on the dumb blonde standard as well trust me i've seen it, ever grow out of it? i dont know. i guess we'll find out with time right?
well thats all for me for today PEACE YA'LL!!!

Holding You
By: Dru Hill

Verse 1: 
Damn Check it out I can't remember why we fell apart Or even how the arguments all start I got this crazy thought running through my head Mmmm, you keep insisting on convincing me that nothing's changed And keep on telling me I'm trippin' but it's not a game Cuz something's different when I'm in it, it don't feel the same I keep on picturing another nigga been hold-n-you

Chorus:
I feel somebody's been touch-n-you In fact I know somebody's been kissin' you Do you wanna tell me who's been love-n-you , love-n-you Hold-n-you, I don't know why I been trusting you Only did what I'm supposed to do
I don't know how I been such a fool for love-n-you

Verse 2:
It never really mattered too much to me I guess I was too blind and I could not see The message in the words that I heard you say Hmmm, that you're unhappy and you think you need some time away These things just happen but I know they don't happen that way I try and understand because I love you But I keep on thinking that another nigga been hold-n-you Check it out , check it out

Conversation:
C'mon, pick up the phone, Shelly
Hello
Yeah whatchu doin?
Sittin here thinking 'bout you boo
Oh, yeah? Did you think about me when you was with your girlfriends creepin?
What?
And you was at the club straight freaking
That wasn't me
What am I suppose to do Tell me how could you be thinking 'bout me I saw him in the bedroom baby
Whatever
I'm looking through the window, don't you play me
Hold up! Where you at?
Baby won't you tell the truth
I am
Cuz I ain't trippin' and I know that nigga been hold-n-you

Chorus

Bridge:
Why, why, why, tell me why, why Whoa why, why, why, why, why
Tell me why, why, why Holding you babe Yeah, shouldn'ta been trustin' you, yeah Whoa, I was your fool, yes I was Yes I was, yeah, oh I won't be your fool no more No more baby Oh, yeah Check it out, check it out

Well my life has kind of been not so hectic since the last time i have written. its still hectic as ever. working two jobs, which i really dont need two but its life and love my second one more than the first. FBI agents have the best life yo, except for all that paper work and shit. on the scene is what i wanna, gotta, do. that is true.
Well as for my mom and planning the wedding shes going crazy. theres so much to be done and so little time. i mean think of it as reality, its next september! thats not exactly 2 years from now like she planned thats more like 11 months from now. shes going crazy! i try to help her as much as i can, but what can i really do? yea ill come home after work and try to keep the kids away from her. Anthony does a great job at that, he's already stepping into as a father figure and taking on the disciplinary role as a father. which he needs to be, not so as to me but my brother and sister. i for one remember my father all too well, and he wasnt much of a father. That is why i decided to adopt my neice, so i can offer her a better life and be a better father than what she had. she had no life in the adoption center and she had no father. she had no family that cared for and loves her. now she does. and i promised myself as well as her i wouldnt be the kind of father that i had. well anyway back to my mom, she wanted her wedding 2 years from now, the same month and same date. well they were booked for that date two years from now and the only one that they had open was the one 11 months from now. which my mom wasnt too fond of but in order to get her date she settled for that and now is going absolutely insane with wedding arrangements. well thats my mom for you.
as for the updates on the group, Dora had a really well written song which in my opinion Robby destroyed lol. well he didnt destroy it i think he's just feeling burried in the dirt because he and his girlfriend of 1year and 10 months broke up for reason he didnt care to share with me. so that i have to figure, is why he changed her sweet song of "what hurts the most" to "what hurts the most" and made it a sad, depressing song. although we made sure to keep her orginal copy of the song so we can use later. Robby has been writting all the songs lately he also wrote one called "gotta go home" and Hollie wrote one called "breaks my heart" whats up with all the sad songs? its kinda depressing dont you think? i think so. →argh. damn it. ←D thats all your fault! someones farting in here. lol. anyway im out. enjoy.

Angel
By: Dru Hill

Verse 1:
Girl, it's been so long Since I held you in my arms So I picked up pen and paper And decided to write you a song Things just ain't the same Since you took your love away All I have is dark and lonely days Cuz the sun don't shine my way Wish that I can find the words To say to show you love is real The words just can't express the way I feel

Chorus:
You're my angel My sun up in the sky We've been through hell and back together Why you wanna leave me now Only you can ease the pain I feel
And wipe my tears away Won't you fly back home and make me whole again

Verse 2:
Baby not a day goes by That I don't want to cry When I think of what we had And how you walked out of my life All I had was yours to take Till my heart you chose to break Still wish that I can make love to you Just one more time for old times sake If only I could find the words To say to show you love is real The words just can't express the way I feel

Chorus

Bridge:
Come back home Come back home Cuz without you here beside me, girl
My house is not a home Only you can ease the pain I feel And wipe my tears away Won't you fly back home And make me whole again

Chorus

Jesus talk about depressing. WHY CANT I GET AWAY FROM THE DEPRESSING SONGS!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

is actually very hectic in my life right now and kind of worry-some to. i havent heard from Amanda in the past week or so, so im kinda worried about that. wondering if shes doing okay.  yea actually i think its more wondering than worrying. i dont have to worry about her too much. on the other hand she does most of the worrying for both of us. lol. shes always worrying over me.
my home life is heating up also. my mom is running around like a nervous emotional wreck today planning for a wedding that will be September 23 2005. thats next year! shes also working two wonderful, fullfilling, glamorous (if you would say that i do cus she gets sooo much back out of them), hectic, demanding, on the go jobs that she loves so much. then she comes home and cooks dinner for everybody but me cuz im usually not home to eat any of the time. so shes really busy. theres not one day that she has for herself anymore. monday through friday mornings shes busy with her law firm company (no its not the same one i work for) and then monday through friday nights shes busy with the childrens hospital. Then on the weekends shes planning for a wedding, shes keeping Mike and Kelly in line also babysitting sometimes for Keillie when i cant find one. so shes really busy and i give her sooo many props for still being the loving, caring, patient, and understanding mother that she always was and still is even with her hectic and demanding lifestyle she has on her time right now.
as for me im just busy with school, work, keillie, and the group projects. but as of right now im not sure i can stand 100% behind this TWO project, i will continue to support my friends Dora, Robby, and Holly. But until i can get out of this hecticness my life is in and finish helping my mom as best i can, my time will be limited for those following reasons.
as for the group since i dont have a working computer at all and i know that the group dates are running at their low right now and new ones have to be posted take it as ALL GROUP REHEARSALS  will be in the Suffolk Community College Riverhead Building down in the Audio/Visual room on Wednesdays during Common Hour. ALL GROUP RECORDINGS will be at my house. ANY changes in this i will state otherwise at rehearsals.
i guess thats all for now i'll catch ya'll laters.

Dance With Me
By: 112

Chorus:
I see you looking at me I can tell by your eyes that your feeling me and I really want you to get close with me. So wont you dance with me...dance with me. My drop tops in the parking lot and I wanna take you back to my spot. We can snuggle a little, more time to us. So wont you dance with me...dance with me!

Verse 1:
I can see you over there just chillin' with your girlfriends, can't believe your by your self you should be hear with me, chillin' with me, drinkin' with me, freakin' with me. Oooohhh whoa, whoa!

Chorus

Verse 2:
I can see it in your eyes that your looking at the time. You wanna leave this party and I know you wanna leave with me. To chill with me, to drink with me, to freak with me, oh baby!

Chorus(2X)

Bridge:
Everybody sing along.... If you sexy and you know it clap your hands If you sexy and you know it clap your hands If you sexy and you know it and you really wanna show it, if you sexy and you know it clap your hands Yeah!

Chorus(3X)

right now im using the school computers cus mine is all fucked up, i found out that i have a virus. well thats always good news to hear. right now i dont have the time to take my machine down to get it fixed, money is no option its just the time. my brother is still stupid as fuck, i dont know whats wrong with this kid. i swear. everyone is in a bad mood all of a sudden and honestly i dont want any part of it. there hasnt been much going on lately at all come to think about it. so im out.

Cleanin Out My Closet
By: Eminem

Intro:
Where's my snare? I have no snare on my headphones There you go Yeah
Yo yo

Verse 1:
Have you ever been hated, or discriminated against?
I have, I've been protested and demostrated against
Picket signs for my wickid rhymes, look at the times
Sick as the mind, of the mother fucking kid that's behind
All this commotion, emotions run deep as oceans exploding
Tempers flaring from parents just blow em off and keep going
Not taking nothing from no one, give em hell long as I'm breathing
Keep kicking ass in the morning, and taking names in the evening
Leave them with a taste sour as vinegar in they mouth
See they can trigger me, but they'll never figure me out
Look at me now, I betcha prolly sick of me now
Ain't you mama, I'ma make you look so ridiculous now

Chorus:
I'm sorry mama I never meant to hurt you I never meant make you cry But tonight, I'm cleaning out my closet One More Time I'm sorry mama I never meant to hurt you I never meant make you cry But tonight, I'm cleaning out my closet Ha!

Verse 2:
I got some skeletons in my closet
And I dont know if no one knows it
So before they throw me inside my coffin and close it
I'ma expose it, I'll take you back to '73
Before I ever had a multi-platinum selling CD
I was a baby maybe I was just a couple of months
My faggot father must've had his panties up in a bunch
'Cause he split, I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye
No I don't, on second thought I just fucking wished he would die
I look at Hailey, and I couldn't picture leaving her side
Even if I hated Kim, I grin my teeth and I try to make it work
With her atleast for Hailie's sake I maybe made some mistakes
But I'm only human but I'm man enough to face them today
What I did was stupid, no doubt it was dumb
But the smartest shit I did was take the bullets outta that gun
Cause I'd of killed em, shit I would've shot Kim and him both
It's my life, I'd like to welcome ya'll to the Eminem show

Chorus 

Verse 3:
Now I would never diss my own mama just to get recognition
Take a second to listen for who you think this record is dissing
But put yourself in my position, just try to envision
Witnessing your mama popping prescription pills in the kitchen
Bitching that someone's always going through her purse when shit's
missing
Going through public housing systems, victim of munchhausen syndrome
My whole life I was made to believe I was sick when I wasn't
'Til I grew up, now I blew up it makes you sick to your stomach,
doesn't it?
Wasn't it the reason you made that CD for me, ma?
So you could try to justify the way you treated me, ma?
But guess what, your getting older now and it's cold when your lonely
And Nathan's growing up so quick he's gonna know that your phoney
And Hailie's getting so big now, you should see her, she's beautiful
But you'll never see her, she wont even be at your funeral hahaha
See what hurts me the most, is you wont admit you was wrong
Bitch, do your song, keep telling yourself that you was a mum
But how dare you try to take what you didn't help me to get
You selfish bitch, I hope you fucking burn in hell for this shit!
Remember when Ronnie died and you said you wished it was me?
Well guess what, I am dead, dead to you as can be

Chorus 

well yesterday i went with my uncle in Queens to do an FBI search. this is like my training for when i become an FBI agent. i seriously want to, that job is sooo cool. oh my god i love it like you wouldnt believe. if you look in the newspaper today the whole story is in there. Newsday paper. so if your in another state im not sure whether or not the story will be in there. but you never know.
besides that my mom was kinda flipping last night because she had just cleaned the house and Mike came home and trashed the kitchen. i cant believe that kid is so stupid you know? i swear how the hell you gon come home knowing mom just cleaned and she told you and make a disaster area, like a bomb went off, in our kitchen? i heard her yelling at him and she forced him to clean up his mess. that was honestly a sight to see. that was great, he deserves it.
i dont think that there is anything else too exciting going on. so i guess that im out.

'97 Bonnie and Clyde
By: Eminem

Intro:
Just the two of us.. (8X)

Verse 1:
Baby your da-da loves you (hey) And I'ma always be here for you (hey) no matter what happens You're all I got in this world I would never give you up for nothin Nobody in this world is ever gonna keep you from me I love you C'mon Hai-Hai, we goin to the beach
Grab a couple of toys and let da-da strap you in the car seat
Oh where's mama? She's takin a little nap in the trunk
Oh that smell (whew!) da-da musta runned over a skunk
Now I know what you're thinkin - it's kind of late to go swimmin
But you know your mama, she's one of those type of women
that do crazy things, and if she don't get her way, she'll throw a fit
Don't play with da-da's toy knife, honey, let go of it (no!)
And don't look so upset, why you actin bashful?
Don't you wanna help da-da build a sand castle? (yeah!)
And mama said she wants to show how far she can float
And don't worry about that little boo-boo on her throat
It's just a little scratch - it don't hurt, her was eatin
dinner while you were sweepin and spilled ketchup on her shirt
Mama's messy isn't she? We'll let her wash off in the water
and me and you can pway by ourselves, can't we?

Chorus:
Just the two of us.. (2X) And when we ride! Just the two of us.. (2X)
Just you and I! Just the two of us.. (2X) And when we ride! Just the two of us.. (2X) Just you and I!

Verse 2:
See honey.. there's a place called heaven and a place called hell
A place called prison and a place called jail
And da-da's probably on his way to all of em except one
Cause mama's got a new husband and a stepson
And you don't want a brother do ya? (Nah)
Maybe when you're old enough to understand a little better
I'll explain it to ya
But for now we'll just say mama was real real bad
She was bein mean to dad and made him real real mad
But I still feel sad that I put her on time-out
Sit back in your chair honey, quit tryin to climb out (WAHH!)
I told you it's okay HaiHai, wanna ba-ba?
Take a night-night? Nan-a-boo, goo-goo ga-ga?
Her make goo-goo ca-ca? Da-da change your dia-dee
Clean the baby up so her can take a nighty-nighty
Your dad'll wake her up as soon as we get to the water
Ninety-seven Bonnie and Clyde, me and my daughter

Chorus

Verse 3:
Wake up sweepy head we're here, before we pway
we're gonna take mama for a wittle walk along the pier
Baby, don't cry honey, don't get the wrong idea
Mama's too sweepy to hear you screamin in her ear (ma-maa!)
That's why you can't get her to wake, but don't worry
Da-da made a nice bed for mommy at the bottom of the lake
Here, you wanna help da-da tie a rope around this rock? (yeah!)
We'll tie it to her footsie then we'll roll her off the dock
Ready now, here we go, on the count of free..
One.. two.. free.. WHEEEEEE! (whoooooshhhhh)
There goes mama, spwashin in the wa-ta
No more fightin wit dad, no more restraining order
No more step-da-da, no more new brother
Blow her kisses bye-bye, tell mama you love her (mommy!)
Now we'll go play in the sand, build a castle and junk
But first, just help dad with two more things out the trunk

Chorus

Outro:
Just me and you baby is all we need in this world Just me and you
Your da-da will always be there for you Your da-da's always gonna love you Remember that If you ever need me I will always be here for you
If you ever need anything, just ASK Da-da will be right there Your da-da loves you I love you baby