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argh

02.28.04 (4:38 pm) [edit]

i dunno im not a very happy person today. too many bad things happened to me.
i was at the store and some lady threw her food at me! literally. i swear i was ready to kick her ass!
then at the same store, and some guy thought i worked there or something and he was like "are you gon finished baggin my food?" i was like 'excuse you i dont work here asshole.' so yea people yo.
fuckin people. i hate people. well dora and cornell.....
i dunno cornell is all she talks about. she really likes him it seems. so now i gotta hear all about her and cornell everytime i talk to her. lol.
its kinda annoying.
well ready for your random song of the day?

yea well you know

02.26.04 (5:33 pm) [edit]

yea well you know i havent been on in a couple days.
ive been mad busy with school, work, keillie, and of course my first true love, my cars. well if its a nice day tomarrow im gonna wash my truck and wax her. yesh.
yesh yesh yesh. uhh theres not much really to say, nothin really happend besides that shtuffs.
oh well d and her new bf cornell have been getting along really well so im happy for her. she says hes really respectful and hasnt tried and of those "corny horny" moves as the rest of us guys try. or at least thats what she calls them. lol. but hey u know im happy for her and shes happy so thats all that really matters right?
random song for today?!

[u]Sexy Eyes[/u]
By: Baby Bash

Chorus:
Sexy Eyes, they’re so lovely, Sexy Eyes Make me wanna love ya Sexy Eyes, Girl you’re lookin’ way cool tonight Oohh Da da da da da, Ya know I got the cognac,
Da da da da da, And the phat bomb sack Da da da da da, Your sexy eyes got me hypnotized, Lady come and take a ride with me.

Verse 1:
Shorty do you know the time
All I wanna do is vibe
Put you on the suga rise
Smilin’ wit your pearly whites
Sexy eyes
Sexy waist
Sexy each and every day
When I put this thang up on ya
Sexy mama wanna merry maid
But hold up now,
we just met
Let me see how long you keep it wet
Hold it steady,
already,
Baby girl we done did dat
It’s like a stair way to paradise
When I look into your eyes,
Mama very nice
And we can do all type of thangs
Rollin in them whips and I like to swang
You know it’s nathan to a trilla though
Your sexy eyes are so spiritual

Chorus

Verse 2:
The steelo so kamikaze
Shrinin’ like Liberachy
Smelling like Burberry
Me E’Seemiagy
It’s goin’ down like gravity
Yo baby daddy mad at me
And I throw these things so handley
Cop me an assault and battery
She still wanna love me like a playboy bunny
Lookin’ like warm hunny
So classy and stunny
Faithfully,
she waits for me
Like the real ones really do
So gracefully she’s made for me
And you know that’s on the cool
Girl get your shine on like a candle in the wind
Gotta keep my mind strong
When I’m hammer in the fin
And one look is all it took
Incredible thighs
And one look is all it took
Incredible eyes

Chorus

Bridge:
Time don’t wait for love And life don’t wait for a break in the weather It’s time for me and you to hook up Let’s get this thing together.

Chorus

yea well you know

02.26.04 (5:32 pm) [edit]

anywho.......

02.23.04 (1:56 pm) [edit]

i have no idea what anyone is talkin about today. kinda like the rest of their comments. lol. bet you have no idea about what im talking about either.
well another one of amanda's family members died yesterday so their goin to support, and thats cool. no, not that a family member died but that they're goin to support them. thats the part thats cool. you know you gotta, family gotta stick together, u know. i think im gonn check out someone elses blog to see about music for mine:) that would be pretty cool u heard.
well anywho im gonna bounce fo now cus theres nothing really to talk about. well here is your random song of the day:

[u]Shorty (doo wop)[/u]
By: Baby Bash

Chorus
Yeah that’s my shorty (my shorty) doo wop (doo wop)
Yeah that’s my shorty doo wop (I love them things she do) Yeah that’s my shorty doo wop (I love them things she do) And I can’t wait to be alone with you (baby)

Verse 1:
I bet you never seen a shorty so fly
Pushing candy paint with the chrome chopping by
Throwing up playa ways to my partnas on the block
They all show love to my shorty doo wop
In the juicy fruit jeans bumpin 3-15’s
Living every fantasy a ghetto girl dreams
Watch her swing and bang as she bend another corner
Looking way cool coming thru with the dosure
Now after two honey blunts I discovered the buzz
I’ma call her shorty she gon call me her love
Thru the thick of it all she accepted collect calls
When her daddy got caught up by the law

Chorus

Verse 2:
For real though
for real though
for real though
She the girl in the movie and I’m the hero
Stuck with me when I violated peero
And came up when she started with zero
Baby Bash Latino Robert de Niro
She got with me cause her hubby was a weirdo
And yes sir she looking so mighty mighty
Love me cause I’m fresh and clean and so tighty
There’s a piece to the puzzle
the grind the hustle
Respect when I’m good and love me when I’m in trouble
And yes sir,
oh no,
yes sir she looking so throw

Chorus

Bridge:
I can’t wait (I cant wait) to be alone with you (to be alone with you girl) Cause you’re the only boo who do the freaky things you do You keep me feeling high you keep my drama low (ohh) Yeah I’m your shorty boy (my shorty girl) but you already know

Chorus

oh man

02.22.04 (7:32 am) [edit]

yo last night was hot yo. i went out with a few of my friends and got into mad trouble.
FBI was following the whole night as usual. usual rutine now. im kinda getting used to the whole bodygaurd thing. its pretty cool. so anyway
we went out and had a few drinks, went down to the local store and created mischeif beyond belief. we broke 4 shopping carts, we diswheeled them and dishandled them. lol. we broke the ramp in the back of the store for the trucks, lol, thats no longer usable. we went inside the store and broke the toilet, a whole roll of toilet paper in the toilet its clogged, lol. we broke a lot of glass jars, then we went up to the customer service desk and complained at how dirty their store was and how they should work harder at keeping it clean. lol. we knocked over a whole produce display there were strawberries and blackberries all over the place. we finally left after that one we didnt want the police called on us it was bad enough that the FBI just stood there and watched us creating mischief and didnt even care.
i then went home around 1230am to hear what? my mom bitchin over something, i have no idea but she was yelling at my brother for what? everything he did wrong. what he do wrong? who the fuck knows. so i didnt get to bed until 1 something. and im up at 10? damn yo. i should still be sleeping.
but yo Amanda is on, she said something about we have a lot of things to talk about. uh oh. i dont like that at all. cus that usually results in the blame is all on me or me being sorry for something that i didnt even do!
anywho random song of th day....

[u]Weed Hand[/u]
By: Baby Bash

Chorus:
Sometimes da game got me stressin partner i can't lie. I roll me a sweet smash off n da ride a whole piece i aint never lied.I put my weed hand n da sky. i put my weed hand n da sky. i respect it for da luv of life. a whole piece i aint never lied.i put my weed hand in da sky. i put my weed hand in da sky.

Verse 1:
The smokes killing off my lungs and appendix.
It's baby bash the modern day jimmy hendrix.
deep down in texas,
dope house is so relentless.
The fluff is endless, smokin wit my lawer and my dentist. Feelin stupendiss wanna come to my quarter stacks. Smokin on greener reef, singing boby to dem older cats. Dem dodger sax,
wit a coffee grinder at my mercy.
Dun rolled a lax wit a highspeed chasers ones dat coudn't curch me.
Cocked mouthed and thirsty gotta keep my spirit lifted though.
My spiritual,
lyrical,
it's hydromyrical. I'm comin visious though,
wit a fully loaded off dat derby.
feelin so worthy cuz my vacume lungs are like dat curby.
and don't disturb me when i'm floatin to my foreign land. You no fo' sho' i keep my pipe in my weed hand.
My weed hand is something i don't disrespect.
Your weed hand throw it up and represent your weed.

chorus:

Verse 2:
I'ma gonna admit it and you know i'm wid it.
Begin his life,
got his only one and split it.
Lit it up wit my nephew,
and now i'm floatin.
My crown is broaken,
soakin up my soal,
sippen styraphone cups.
choken now i'm low,
If you ridden on us dats cool but pass da joint.
diamonds flyin and you just had to go.
cuz u dun cast da vote.
and i didn't even get a hit.
no not even a little bit.
so now help me get rid of dis.
baby girl don't disrespect the luv.
and i can't see dat.
ask where we get the best of bud.
put up ur weed hand.

Chorus:

Verse 3:
Man i been down dis way b4.
i hit da bong back up and blow.
I'm too damn high don't pass me no mo'.
I blaze drown,
sip on a 4 stayin high i'm on a note.
u can smell da bong all on my clothes.
man look at my eyes they bout to b closed.
I'm choken dudes up out hte room wit my weed hand in the sky.
I'm stayin blowed on octamodes and i'm leanin half da time.
I'm stayin high and i hustle fool.
don't be at home up on my ass gotta get up and glock sum cash.
hoes thinkin they gonna smoke for free.
but not wit a young P.I.M.P.
Just cuz i'm young don't mean i'm dumb.
Red microphones now blaze sum of dat greener reef. And pour sum of dat purple stuff.
down here we smokin bud.
ya i no u herd of us.

chorus:

ending outro:
My weed hand, put ur weed hand in da sku, my weed hand, east west, my weed hand, north south, something we can all relate to, my weed hand.

early in the morning...

02.21.04 (6:57 am) [edit]

yep man i woke up to early. i think it was about 830am. yea. too too early. i was in pain this morning cus i had to piss like you wouldnt believe. so yea i think thats the only reason i got up this morning and yea.
well i took a shower and now im all fresh and clean and tidy for the day ahead of me. yesh.
i plan not to be home from 330-9 cus im goin out with my friends and yesh. it will be fun cause a lil mischeif on the sidelines. hehe.
maybe ill get to talk to amanda today. after readin her blog i kinda wanna talk to her. so yea. i dunno. theres not much really......wait
my moms home all day today that mean either her chillin with Anthony or she'll be home bitching at us. ohhh Anthony please come over today. lol. yesh. i pray for that one to happen.
the kids got to bed pretty early last night suprisingly. usually they stay up till all hours of the night. they were in bed by 10pm.
i stayed on here till 11pm to make sure they were asleep then i went out with my friends just around the hood, just in case i had to get home mad fast i could've. i was indoors by 1am cus thats the time my mom was supposed to be getting off work and i didnt want to take any chances. so i went to bed. yesh.
random song of the day time already? well herrrre we go...

[u]Yes Suh![/u]
By: Baby Bash

Chorus:
We deep! Yes suh! We creep! yes suh! We throughed. we blow. uh huh yes suh. we fly yes suh no lie yes suh.
off the track and the dank so high.

Verse 1:
its my arrival and my survival
I'm skin' higher than mesiagh and his bible.
watch fo dat rifle watch fo dat psycho.
ya breezies choosen and she lookin kinda tight yo
now if you talk that talk
betta walk that walk
dont let this pretty face fool ya
cause I'm a savage like a dallas maverick
got nephews that will do ya
snatch that jersey off yo skeleton wit the quickness
and if its wall to wall you betta gaurd yo jaw we handle that buisseness
servin this game like tennis
we up in dis mean muggin
crackin the fuck up at them squares dream thuggin
rap by____blowin on trees cousin.
Nick is sticky in the payne
tricky in the tank
and dont miss me wit dat dank
5 fronted in the street equals 65 G's
in the jordan Breifcase like that boy from the P
its bigger than showbiz so i'm stayin focused
when they holla at the club much them bows is?

Chorus

Verse 2:
I remember when my thug showed me how to slang heat
how the man funna talkman we gon bring beat
this what i'm goin through this what i stand fo
thuggin aint that leagal but doin what I can bro
but i sound small as amens
i'm raw as amens
i pop wit lift mics and bitch press hens
damn hes all in it
seen niggas bawl in it
bawl otta tennis and story we know all about it
niggas mad at the game it aint showin no love
yeah its cold nigga deal wit it show 'em you thug
havin partnas in prison and a few dead friends
was the streets way of showin me two dead ends
then the beats got tha showin me you could make ends
goin hard in the pank
went ta pussy fo a skank
one thug that had was in that
bar bash in tha manilla world
comin fo dat ass yes suh

Chorus

Verse 3:
I'm jus a mack man
i'm just a mack man
and if its crackin where ya mackin
where you at man
i'm just a mack man
and if its crackin where ya mackin
where you at man
i'm just a mack man
i'm just a mack man
and if its crackin where ya mackin
where you at man
i'm just a mack man
i'm just a mack man
and if its crackin where ya mackin
where you at man

Chorus: (4x)

BOREDOM

02.20.04 (6:22 pm) [edit]

i just got back workin on this song called "untouchable". it sounds mad hot, all i need is d's voice on the track and then its finally finished. yep. i dunno.
im waiting for Amanda to come online so i can talk to her. hopefully she'll come on soon.
im really bored, theres no on to talk to. yea this sucks.
my mom is at work, thank god, she has nothing to bitch about if shes at work. :) thats a mad good thing. my bro and sis are home along with keillie. yea that sucks im babysitting.
d is all pissed off that her dad wont let her go out with her friend or see this guy cus he has some kinda hatred agaisnt everyone. yes including me her dad thinks im an asshole just cus of my past. im lik yea ook. i dunno.
i hate babysitting. well my daughter got a new cell phone that i got her so she can keep intouch with me whenever she needs to. she calls me everyday between 930-1045 mon-fri and im like yo im class at that time mon-thrus. lol. and on fri i come back home after dropping her off at school and i go back to bed for an hour before i leave for my one friday class. and she still calls me and im like yo im sleeping. then she calls me when she gets to her friends out after school, then she calls me later usually when im at work to tell me that shes bored. im like damn yo. it does get annoying after a while but i just cant not answer the phone, cus what happens if its something important, or shes in trouble or something. you know. so i gotta answer it.
well anywho heres yet another random song for today.

[u]Bright Future In Sales[/u]
By: Fountains Of Wayne

Verse 1:
Sleeping on a planter at the port authority, waiting for my bus to come. Seven scotch and sodas at the office party, now I don't remember where I'm from. I think I had black wallet in my back pocket, with a bus ticket and a picture of my baby inside.

Chorus:
And if I make it home alive, I'm gonna get my shit together, Cause I could live like this forever. You know I've come too far and I don't want to quit. I got a new computer, and a bright future in sales, Yeah Yeah (Yeah Yeah) Bright future in sales, Yeah Yeah (Yeah Yeah) Yeah Yeah

Verse 2:
Heading for the airport on a misty morning, gonna catch a flight to Baltimore. Tried to kill an hour with a whiskey sour, and this time I might have just one more. I gotta do some, quick reading for the big meeting, but my head is spinning and i can't quite open my eyes. As long as I don't have to drive.

Chorus

Verse 3:
Bright future in sales, Yeah Yeah (Yeah Yeah) Bright future in sales, Yeah Yeah (Yeah Yeah) Yeah Yeah. I had a line on a brand new account, but now I can't seem to find where I wrote that number down. I try to focus, I'm staring at the screen, pretending like I know what all these little flashing lights mean. (Oh Yeah) I gotta do some quick reading, for the big meeting, but my head is spinning, and I can't quite open my eyes.

Chorus

Bright future in sales, Yeah Yeah (Yeah Yeah)
Bright future in sales, Yeah Yeah (Yeah Yeah)Yeah Yeah

bitcy people? still.

02.20.04 (12:12 pm) [edit]

ahh i dunno. people here and there are still bitching. well im off from work tonight so yea thats always nice. for once i have friday, sat, and sun off. ahh 3 day weekend to do nothing but rest. yea right?! i gotta go into my studio and work on my new shit ive been doing so thats what ill prolly be doing all night. yep. i dunno.
i got Amanda's ahh thingy thing, note yea thats it note a lil while before. not sure quiet what to think. but im not mad, not angry, dont hate her, never have hated her....in a way ive done the same damned thing so i can forgive her, seeing how she has forgiving me...i think.
i still havent yet gotten to drive my new car! its killing me! theres mad big pot holes and shit and my car is really low to the ground so yea. i hit one of those and my damned car is ruined underneath, so i gotta wait until the pot holes get fixed. lol.
random song of the day:

[u]Mexican Wine[/u]
By: Foutains Of Wayne

Verse 1:
He was killed by a cellular phone explosion, They scattered his ashes across the ocean. The water was used to make baby lotion, The wheels of commotion were set into motion.

Chorus:
But the sun still shines in the summer time, I'll be yours if you'll be mine. I tried to change, but I changed my mind, Think I'll have another glass of Mexican wine.

Verse 2:
She lived alone in a small apartment, Across the street from the health department. She left her pills in the glove compartment, That was the afternoon her heart went.

Chorus

Verse 3:
Think I'll have another glass of Mexican wine. I used to fly for United Airlines, Then I got fired for reading High Times. My license expired in almost no time, Now I'm retired and I think that's fine.

Chorus

Think I'll have another glass of Mexican wine
Won't you have another glass of Mexican wine?

ugh

02.19.04 (5:45 pm) [edit]

why do people need to bitch for? dora's father is bitching about things so she's talking to me now. and my moms bitching, then again my mom is always bitching about things. my mom is under a lot of stress as is u know with my dad and all, so thats kinda understandable. its like damn yo. i dunno. im under a lot of stress and shit so nothing helps right now. omg there goes my mom again. ugh. i dunno. i dont care. its just annoying. dora's dad is gonna ruin her sat. as usual thats nothing new. lol. yesh. too much tv watching. lol. at least that what she says. i dunno. dont care really.

[u]Run Rabbit Run[/u]
By: Eminem

Somedays I just wanna up and call the quits,
I feel like I'm surrounded by a wall of bricks,
Everytime I go to get up I just fall in pits.
My life's like one great big ball of shit!
If I could,
just put it all onto what I spit .
Instead of always tryina swallow it,
Instead of starin' at this wall and shit.
While I sit writin' this plot,
sick of all this shit.
Kid,
Call it Shit!
All I know is I'm about to hit the wall,
If I ever have to see another one of Mom's alcaholic fits.
This is it last straw,
That's all,
That's it,
I ain't dealin' with another fuckin' politic.
I'm like a skillet bubblin',
until it filters up,
I'm about to kill it,
I can fill it buildin' up.
Blow this building up,
I'm concealed enough,
My cup,
When its over I'da filled it up,
Then it explodes,
and spills my guts.
You think all I do is stand here and feel my nuts.
Well.. Imma show you what,
You gon' feel my rush,
If you don't feel it,
then it must be too real to touch.
Build the dutch,
Im about to tear shit up,
Goosebumps,
Yea Imma make your hair sit up,
Yea sit up.
Imma tell you who I be,
Imma make you hate me,
Cuz you ain't me.
You ate,
it ain't too late for you to finally see,
What you close-minded Fucks,
What you Blind to see,
Whoever finds me is gonna get a finds to see.
Out this world,
they no it ain't a mind to me,
You need piece of mind?
Here's a piece of mine,
All I need's a line,
Sometimes I don't always find the words to rhyme,
To express how I'm really feeling at that time,
Yes Sometimes,
Sometimes,
Sometimes,
Its just sometimes is always me.
How dark can he always be,
The clock strikes midnight,
1,
2,
then half passed 3.
This half-ass rhyme,
with this half-ass piece of paper,
I'm desperate in my task,
If I could just get the rest of this shit off my chest,
Again Stuck in this slump,
Can't think of nothing,
Fuck,
I'm stumped,
Oh Wait Here comes something!
No! Its not good enough,
scribble it out,
New pad,
tinkle it up,
and throw the shit out.
I'm fizzling out,
thought I figured it out,
Balls in my court but I'm scared to dribble it out.
I'm afraid,
but why am I afraid?
Why am I a slave,
To this Tray?
Sign not to spit to the grave,
Real enough to route you up,
Want me to flip it?
I can rip it,
any style you want.
Imma switch to the bitch Jimmy Smith aint a quitter,
Imma sitter till I get enough finally hit a boiling point,
Put some oil in your joints,
Flip the coin,
Bitch come get destroyed.
And EmCee's worst dream,
I make them tensed,
they hate me,
See me and Shape like a Chainling Finx.
By the looks of em you would swear that Jaws was coming.
By the screams of them you would swear Im saw and so on.
By the way they runnin',
you could swear they all was coming,
Its now or never,
And tonight is all or nothing.
Momma,
Jimmy keeps leaving on us,
He said he'd be back,
He pinky promised,
I don't think he's honest.
I'll be back baby,
I just gotta beat this clock,
Fuck this clock!
Imma make them Eat this watch,
Don't believe me Watch!
Imma win this race,
And Imma come back and rub my shit on your face, Bitch! I found my nitch,
You gonna fear my voice Till your SICK of it you ain't gonna have a choice.
If I gotta scream till I have half a lung,
If I have have a chance,
Imma grab it,
Rabbit Run!

scared yo

02.18.04 (6:49 pm) [edit]

ever since my dad got on probation ive been scared. cus i never know where he'll be, he said that he'd come back for me and kill me and my mom. but when he got jailed we had moved into a different area in the Hamptons. so now i got my uncle watching over us. He's in the FBI so each one of my immediate family memebers has two FBI agents following them around. its so weird your driving somewhere and you have two black lincolns behind you following you. its freaky. they have to be at least 20 feet within you at all times. they cant let you or your car or your items out of their site. so while one is following me around school, work, with friends or whatever the other one stays behind and wathces over my vechile. they keep in touch by walkie talkies (nextel ones cus they gotta keep intouch with me to) so yea. its like i cant even go to the bathroom without one following me and standing outside the stall waiting. its llike yo i can do this by myself. lol. my school i think is taking the FBI agent as a bitg joke. one of my professors today was making jokes and laughing and shit. and its really not funny. if my dad gets any kinda clue to where we are, our lives could be in danger. we also have police headquaters on standby for us. so yea. we're safe all the way around i guess. its scarey knowing that my dad is out there somewhere armed and dangerous. armed and dangerous with firearms and alcohol. thats two scarey combinations.
ready for the random song of the day? i guess after that you are. lol.

[u]Freestyle[/u]
By: 8 Mile

Rabbit:
Now everybody from the 313
Put your mothefucking hands and follow me
Everybody from the 313
Put your mothefucking hands up
Look,
Look,
Now while he stands tough
Notice that this man did not had his hands up
This free world got you gased up
Now who's afraid of the big bad wolf
1,
2,
3 and to the 4
1 pac,
2 pac,
3 pac,
4
4 pac,
3 pac,
2 pac,
1
You're pac,
he's pac,
no pacs,
none
This guy aint no mother-fuckin MC,
I know everything he's got to say against me,
I am white,
I am a fuckin bum,
I do live in a trailer with my mom,
My boy Future is an Uncle Tom.
I do got a dumb friend named Cheddar Bob who shoots
himself in the leg with his own gun,
I did get jumped by all 6 of you chumps
And Wink did fuck my girl,
I'm still standin here screamin "FUCK THE FREE WORLD!"
Don't ever try to judge me dude
You don't know what the fuck i've been through
But i know something about you
You went to Crankbook,
that's a private school
What's the matter dawg?
You embarrased?
This is guy's a gangster,
he's real name's Clarence
And Clarence lives at home with both parents
And Clarence's parents have a real good marriage
This guy don't wanna battle,
He's shook
'Cause there no such things as half-way crooks
He's scared to death
He's scared to look in his fuckin yearbook,
fuck Crankbook
Fuck the beat,
i go acapella
Fuck a papa doc,
fuck a clock,
fuck a trailer,
fuck everybody
Fuck y'all if you doubt me
I'm a piece of fucking white trash,
i say it proudly
And fuck this battle,
I don't wanna win,
I'm outty,
Here,
tell this people something they dont know about me.

oh man

02.16.04 (7:51 pm) [edit]

i had one of the best nights of my life in a while. this is fucked up but mad awesome.
aight so....lets start all the way from this morning.
i woke up this morning had only one thing on my mind
Cheerios with milk. It's all mine, I devour, take a shower, grab the papers and sacked. its just like see ya'll later I'm packed, dazed and laid in my Cadillac.
Switched lanes out of the driveway ike I was on the highway, yea. I ride a big boy, y'all ride a similac, and oh my Cadillac has 50's in the back. Playin' rap, so relaxing. Passed on by the neighbor Rich Laine, they called him insane. Here's Mr. Chang limps with a cane, Had a crush on Ms. Jannice, blessed and he's strange, now he can't walk the same. Innocent three-legged rover, his owner smooth Jason. he had the girl's hearts racin', like you're nervous and pacin'. Well I swerved the curb, corner action like verb, niggas selling that herbs. Cops throwin' the bird you heard, well i'm on I-90 wit' 28's, unh-huh and beats I got plenty can't wait to see Jenny.
Well, as sun starts to dim and I'm under the speed limit, and there's hectic traffic too, got off at exit 22. Stopped at Lorraine's she's datin' Mr. Kane and she's just as deranged and insane in the brain. Man she blew up his Range, shouted things so profane. Unh-huh. So I go to pits lane, To get the rest of our crew.
man some of those hairdo's look like they went through a seizure. You know, we went to the movies and we didnt even see the feature ha ha. And Jenny's father's a preacher, you see her unleashed around, daddy so sweet. Without daddy she a freak, she's a ho! I ain't never seen her with the same nigga for weeks, naahh wait a minute, yeah I seen her three times with Saadiq.
Pull up to Jenny's and she's waitin' outside, "My hair ain't done" she says im just like get your ass in the ride. Me I'm high and tight, Jenny sippin' on the Henny, I'm drivin' tonight. We turn on Derrek Ave. And then I see these blue lights, blue lights make me nervous. I feel frightend Jenny yells "I ain't goin' to jail tonight" So anyway I'm drivin' slow, then enormously fast cause Jenny dumb her ass slammed on the gas. She says "I'm high". Not to mention all the weed in the ride and the way we drive and are stupid to ride. I bust a right on Memorial Drive she tells me to go left. She threw out the Henn and I threw out the stash and we was goin' so fuckin' fast and we stopped, the cops had caught us at last. So the cop walked up knocked on the window, I dropped, I ain't drunk, I forgot Jenny's uncle's a cop. he said "Yo relax it's me man, you just forgot your keys!" Your keys? Dumbass, I can't believe I threw out my stash I shoulda whooped her ass. I know I have some crazy nights but somethin' about Jenny makes it aight.
so yea that was my night. it was mad fun yo.
now for your random song of the day.

[u]Frestyle[/u]
By: 8 Mile

Lotto:
Yo,
it's time to get rid of this coward once and for all.
I'm sick of the motha fucka!
Check this shit out!
I'll spit a racial slur,
honky,
sue me!
This shit is a horror flick,
but the black guy doesn't die in this movie!
Fuckin' wit Lotto,
dawg,
you gotta be kiddin!
That makes me believe you really dont have a interest in livin!
You think these niggas gonna feel the shit you say?
I got a betta chance joining the KKK.
Or some real shit,
though,
I like you
That's why I didn't wanna have to be the one you commit sucide to
Fuck 'Lotto,'
call me your leader
I feel bad I gotta murder that dude from "Leave It To Beaver"
I used to like that show,
now you got me to "fight back" mode
But oh well,
if you gotta go,
then you gotta go!
I hate to do this,
I would love for this shit to last
So I'll take pictures of my rear end so you won't forget my ass
And all's well that ends well,
ok?
So I'll end this shit wit a "FUCK you,
but have a nice day!"

Rabbit:
Ward,
I think you were a little hard on the Beaver
So was Eddie Haskal,
Wally,
and Ms. Cleaver
This guy keeps screamin',
he's paranoid!
Quick,
someone get his ass another steriod!
"Blahbity bloo blah blah blahbity bloo blah!"
I ain't hear a word you said,
"hipidy hooblah!"
Is that a tank top,
or a new bra?
Look,
Snoop Dogg just got a fuckin' boob job!
Didn't you listen to the last round,
meat head?
Pay attention,
you're sayin the same shit that he said!
Matter fact,
dog,
here's a pencil
Go home,
write some shit,
make it suspenseful,
And don't come back until something don't hits you
Fuck it!
You can take the mike home with you!
Lookin' like a cyclone hit you,
Tank top screamin',
"Lotto, I don't fit you!"
You see how far those white jokes get you
Boy's like "How Vanilla Ice gonna diss you?"
My motto: Fuck Lotto!
I get the 7 digits from your mother for a dolla tomorrow!

yep its over. :(

02.15.04 (1:51 pm) [edit]

yep. its offical she finally dumped me. over what. everything. im alone again. and you know what? ITS ALL MY FAULT!!! :cry: and theres nothing i can do about it. :cry: i shoulda just been straight up wit her from the beginning. paybacks are really bitches. well at least i learned something outta this. i guess thats the important thing now. you know im the first one to agree with "men are dumb" and i just proved that statement right.
well my dads on probation also, big personal issue im trying to deal with here. im afraid. i dont know what he's gonnna do, he always said he'd come back for me and my mom. my mom keeps asking me whats wrong, and i keep telling her nothing. she knows about my dad so she knows thats bothering me but she doesnt know about me and amanda, and i kinda dont plan on telling her.
its all too depressing for me right now so random song of the day......

[u]You[/u]
By: Felicia Adams (baby boy soundtrack)

Intro:
You, you were that someone for me. You, you were that someone for me, and I had always believed, that you would forever be, right here with me

Verse 1:
You made me feel like i was number one in your life so I
gave you everything I could. My life meant nothing to me
If that day you were unhappy, I did more than a woman should, But now it seems that it was all Just a waste of time cuz, Cuz you just up and walked away. Without even a reason why now all I do is sit and cry but there's got to be a brighter day, day.

Chorus:
You, you were that someone for me and I had always believed that you would forever be right here with me I was wrong(See I guess I was wrong) So wrong (because now you're gone and the pain is so strong
cuz I'm alone)

Verse 2:
I feel like I wanna die boy Why did you have to lie cuz you Know I believed every word you said I guess I was a fool to be So in love with you cuz everybody said you were no good Every since the day that you walked All I do is sing a sad song Of how I wish that you'd come back But my daddy said that it'd be ok Baby girl the rain will pass away Then there will be brighter days

Chorus

Verse 3:
With the sunny days It would soon pass away And the loneliness I feel Will be just a memory I said to myself girl hold your head It's gonna be brighter days ahead All of the pain that I've gone through It wasn't worth the tears I cried for you

Chorus

umm yea....

02.14.04 (6:25 pm) [edit]

well me and amanda have seemed to resolve our differences. she now wants my "permission" to hang out with ricky. im like 'what the fuck?' permission my ass, yo if she wants to hang with her friends let her. im not gonna say no, i have no control over that, you know. i dunno amanda's weird. we all know that.
well i had a couple drinks before. yummm, rum yo.
random song of the day you ask? sure.

[u]Freestyle [/u]
By: 8 Mile

Lickety Split:

This guy's a choke artist
Ya catch a bad one
Your better off shootin yourself
With Papa Doc's handgun
Climbin up this mountain your weak
Ill leave you lost without a paddle
Floatin shits creek
You ain't Detroit, Im the D
Your the new kid on the block
Bout to get smacked back to the boonedocks
Fuckin Nazi,
this crowd ain't your type
Take some real advice and form a group with Vanilla Ice
And what I tell you,
you better use it
This guy's a hillbilly,
this ain't Willie Nelson music
Trailor trash,
Ill choke you to your last breath
And have you lookin foolish
Like Cheddar Bob when he shot himself
Silly Rabbit,
I know why they call you that
Cause you follow Future like you got carrots up his asscrack
And when you actin up thats when you got jacked up
And left stupid like Tina Turner when she got smacked up
Ill crack your shoulder blade
Youll get dropped so hard
Elvis will start turnin in his grave
I dont know why they let you out in the dark
You need to take your white ass back across 8 mile
To the trailor park

Rabbit:

This guy raps like his parents jerked him
He sounds like Eric Sermon,
the generic version
This whole crowd looks suspicious
Its all dudes in here,
except for these bitches
So Im a German,
Eh
Thats ok,
you look like a fuckin worm with braids
These Leaders of the Free World rookies
Lookie,
how can 6 dicks be pussies
Talkin bout shits creek
Bitch,
you could be up piss creek
With paddles this deep
Your still gonna sink
Your a disgrace
Yeah,
they call me Rabbit
This is a turtle race
He can't get with me spittin this shit
Wickedly lickety shot
Spickety spickety split lickety
So Im gonna turn around with a great smile
And walk my white ass back across 8 mile!

waitng for amanda and is not in a good mood

02.14.04 (6:00 am) [edit]

this entry was done on 2-13-04 not on the 14
yesh im waiting for amanda to come on, but she has a lot of things stacked agaisnt her right now. lets run down the list shall we.
1. blocking me
2. being mad at me for what reason i dont know
3. ricky:
a. she talks about him nonstop
b. amanda has in her profile something that goes:RICKY: i love you and i hope were together forever
c. she claims to have no more room in her profile for me, well make the fonts smaller and me [u][b]YOUR BF [/b][/u] in.
d. it seems like the majority of her away messages are for ricky.
4. how can you love someone after just a few days cus thats what it seems like.
5. she says i treat her like shit.<--and thats after talkin to ricky to. so> a. he's putting ideas in [u][b]MY[/b][/u] gfs head
b. shes seeing him or
c. its both a. and b.
i dont know. she def has things stacked agaisnt her. but when she comes online today she better tell me the honest truth cus it seems like they're more than just friends. honest to god, i have [u][b]never [/b][/u]cheated on her, [u][b]never[/b][/u] had an away message that was for someone else unless the person was dead, [u][b]never[/b][/u] blocked her, [u][b]never[/b][/u] talked about another girl in her presence, and i [u][b]never [/b][/u]treated her like shit.
i love her and i would [u][b]never[/b][/u] do any of those things to her. she knows how to hurt me alright. not sure what ill do if this is all true, but damned sure she aint gonna like it.

random song of the day:

[u]Day That I Die lyrics[/u]
By: Good Charlette

Verse 1:
One day I woke up, I woke up knowing, Today is the day I will die. Cashdogg was barking, Went to the park
And enjoyed it one last time. I called my mother, Told her I loved her, And I begged her not to cry. I wrote a letter, That said I'd miss her, And I signed that goodbye.
you know the happiest day of my life, I swear the happiest day of my life, Is the day that I die.

Chorus:
Can you feel the cold tonight? (the day that I die), It sets in, but it's alright (the day that I die), Darkness falls, I'm letting go (the day that I die), All alone, but I feel fine.

Verse 2:
We took a drive and We drove through DC, To see the places we lived. Long conversations, We talked of old friends, And all the things that we did. The summer nights, Drunken fights, mistakes we made, Did we live it right? You know the happiest day of my life, I swear the happiest day of my life, Is the day that I die.

Chorus

Verse 3:
you know the happiest day of my life, I know the happiest day of my life, I swear the happiest day of my life, is the day that I die.

Chorus

Bridge:
Did I live it right? I hope I lived it right, Did I live it right? Did I live it right? I hope I lived it right, I know I lived it right.

aights yo...

02.13.04 (11:44 am) [edit]

well lets see, im bored and no one is on. but all in all thats a good thing.
i actually went and got my car washed, then i went through a puddle that was unaviodable and the from of my truck got all dirty. i had to come home and wash my car all over again. well at least the from of my sexy truck:).
i dunno yo, i try to do the right thing and i get kicked in the ass for it. amanda's still mad at me, for what now i have no idea. seriously not a clue. she says i treated her like shit, what for the whole arguement that we had the other night? i dunno. but i didnt do anything. i think she dumped me for good this time. i know she doesnt want anything to do with me, cus she blocked me. i have never blocked her, ever, not matter how pissed off i was at her or whatever. im kinda feeling kinda sick now cus of this, not knowing what i did or anything. i dunno, when amanda left i fell into a depression state where i went back to my drugs, then i met laska and i came out of it and now with my personal shit and amanda hating me all over again im right back where i started with my alcohol, my weed, my morphine, and my tripple c's. im taking 3 of the 4 about 3 hours before i go to bed now. i mean i almost died from morphine almost a year ago and now im right back in the same pattern. i know if she reads this its not gonna make her feel bad, not trying to make her feel bad. its just her, if she wants to let the best guy she knows outta her life then let her. there aint nothing i can do about that.
well thats all folks.
oh yea im off from work today thats always an upper.
now for the random song of the day.

[u]Not Enough[/u]
By: Outsideaz 4 Life

Intro:
Not enough, not enough, not enough baby Not ah not enough time.

Verse 1:
You're something special girl you know your shit is tight, Plus you're blowing my mind, Baby I wish there was a little more time, Like 48 hours in a day, Maybe then I can love you my way.

Chorus: (2X):
Not enough hours in the night, in the night, Not enough time to hold you tight, hold you tight, Oh how time just passes by, When we're making love, when we're making love.

Verse 2:
What a shame, what a shame, today, We both got to go to work, But baby maybe we can call in sick, Just say the word, We don't have to go anywhere, Just chill in each others arms, We could pass the time, play like this everyday. Now tell me what you want me to do, No place I rather be than with you, Ain't nothing that I do when more, Then making love to you, Tell me how you want it baby, and I'm there, You can tell me anything, I don't care, Girl we ain't got time at all, Just know you'll be with me when the sun comes up.

Bridge:
Not enough, not enough, not enough baby, Not ah not enough time, Not enough, not enough, not enough baby, Not ah not enough time, I wanna make love to you.

Chorus (4X)

ehh i dunno...

02.12.04 (11:57 am) [edit]

it seems like all me and amanda have been doin is arguing since she came online. about stupid things to. fucking monkeys we were arguing about last night. MONKEYS!!!! of all things. ahh i dunno. it seemed that once things started to get emotional she had to go. i dunno it always seems like when things get good someone has to go.
anyway time for a random song of the day which kinda reflects me in a way.

[u]So Many Things[/u]

Verse 1:
I don't understand why you had to go. I guess I'll never know. Life seems so hard Since you went your way,
There's still some things I got to say. Even though I'm all alone, I know you want me to be strong, Standing tall admist the rain, Without you life just ain't the same.

Chorus:
There are so many things I'd like to ask you, And there are so many things I still don't know, And there are so many things I'd like to ask you, Still yet so many things I will never know.

Verse 2:
If there was anyway I could see your face again I'd give my own life. Only you can ease my pain, And if I could turn back the hands of time, It would take me just a moment, To tell you what's on my mind. Even though I'm all alone, I know you want me to be strong, Standing tall admist the rain, Without you life just ain't the same.

Chorus:

Outro:
Sometimes I sit and wonder, "Will we ever meet again?"
But wherever life may lead, You'll always have a friend in need.

work sucks.

02.11.04 (5:33 pm) [edit]

yea work sucks. im mad bored. and yea. seeing as how i am home now and bored and complaining about work doesnt make any sense. lol.
amanda is on and talkin to 6 people including me and she cant keep up. lol. that aint my fault. nope. shes funny. but anywho i really dont have much to say about today. yesh......
well random song of the day :wink:

[u]I'll Be Missing You[/u]
By: Puff Daddy f/ 112, Faith Evans

Verse 1:
Yeah... this right here (tell me why)
Goes out,
to everyone,
that has lost someone
That they truly loved (c'mon, check it out)
Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track,
you locked the flow
So far from hangin on the block for dough
Notorious,
they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be (uh-uh)
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone,
we still a team
Through your family,
I'll fulfill your dream (that's right)
In the future,
can't wait to see
If you open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time,
the night they took my friend (uh-huh)
Try to black it out,
but it plays again
When it's real,
feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living your life,
after death

Chorus:
Every step I take, every move I make Every single day, every time I pray I'll be missing you Thinkin of the day, when you went away What a life to take, what a bond to break I'll be missing you

Verse 2:
It's kinda hard with you not around (yeah)
Know you in heaven smilin down (eheh)
Watchin us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts Big I just can't define (can't define)
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6,
shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits,
stages they receive you on
I still can't believe you're gone (can't believe you're gone)
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living you're life,
after death

Chorus
Verse 3:
Somebody tell me why On that morning When this life is over I know I'll see your face

Verse 5:
Every night I pray, every step I take Every move I make, every single day Every night I pray, every step I take Every day that passes Every move I make, every single day Is a day that I get closer To seeing you again
Every night I pray, every step I take We miss you Big... and we won't stop Every move I make, every single day Cause we can't stop... that's right Every night I pray, every step I take Every move I make, every single day We miss you Big

i have one thing to say

02.10.04 (12:29 pm) [edit]

well yea. amanda's been mad at me since she came back online. i really dont get why, i didnt do anything to her. so yea. but theres....

[u]Somethings I Have To Say[/u]

I dont see how.
I look into your eyes, i wish i could tell you all i want.
the things i need just wont come out.
what i want to say i cant.
its not that im shy.
I'm afraid.
of what?
not sure.
All i want is to be with you.
ive never found someone who can keep a grin on me.
you're sweet, fun, kind, quiet, but straight up.
Lie, dont be stupid, i never would to you.
everything i want is basically in you.
i agree with something you say.
you see to keep to yourself, you confuse me.
i enjoy being with you.
i enjoy the smooth sound of your voice, it calms me.
i dont see you shutting me out, but i feel that way.
i wish i could just come out and say that i dig you.
really.
honestly.
no lie.
moms just dont understand.
she bitches about everything.
she makes things up that arent true.
she suits for herself.
i cant stand her sometimes.
i wish you were with me now.
holding me.
loving me.

Now for the random song of the day:

[u]U Know What's Up(Remix)[/u]
By: Donell Jones featuring Left Eye

What up? What up? Say what? Say what? Say what? uh-huh

Ooh say what, say what, say what
Uh, uh, uh, Left Eye
Ooh girl you know what's up
Donell Jones
Ooh say what, say what, say what Ooh girl you know what's up

Verse 1:
Me and my niggas be rollin' Scheming on you and your homies The very first day of summer All chromed out in a Hummer, babe Hit the park and parlay Hope that you walk this way Do you and your girls wanna ride Play all day, puff on the la

Pre-Chorus:
Ooh say what, say what, say what (You know that I like it baby) Ooh girl you know what's up (And you know what I need) Ooh say what, say what, say what (You know that I'm bout it baby) Ooh girl you know what's up (Ooh)

Chorus:
I'm digging you and I'm feeling you And you know what's up Said I'm diggin' you and I'm wanting you So tell me what's up

Verse 2:
Peep her thighs and I'm zoning Right around two in the morning Looking fly with the sun dress on I think I feel a bone coming on Girl, you got me wide open Waitin' all day and I'm hoping So baby don't front Backseat jeep, you know what I want

Pre-chorus
Chorus

Rap: Left Eye:
Uh,
say what?
say what?
say what?
So baby tell me what's up
Can we ascend to higher heights
And when the path gets rough
We can give into brighter nights breath we peace
Expound by leaps,
and soul to reap,
our souls to keep
The passion's deep and filled with heat
Living this life on the hustle,
I barely get enough time
You know me from the platinum,
how I stack them and shine
You see a lot of contenders,
they try to end up in my world
A reputation known as the untouchable girl
I'm moving on now,
trying to make a change in my ways
Be the best that I can be to last me all of my days
Now we can blaze pathways or just take our time
Better holla if ya hear me cause Left Eye gon' shine
My eyes don't lie,
see how they glisten when you pass me by
You and I don't need permission to be unified
Surely I done seen and heard a million places
Then I traveled around the world,
seen many faces
Don't let another one get near me if you wanna be true
And show me that nobody else can do it better than you
So if you're serious,
I'm curious to see what you got
My love is furious cause I believe in blowing up spots

Chorus

Untouchable, Eddie F Darren Lighty, Left Eye, Donell Jones This is how it's going down

argh yep....

02.09.04 (1:30 pm) [edit]

yep mom was bitching. yesh. about what you ask have not a clue shes just goin on about random things that are pissing her off during the day. yep. shes home today from the firm but gotta go to work tonight. yesh. argh i dunno.
hmmmmm....not sure what i was gonna say. i forgot. oh yea. personal issues. lol. not gon go there. family issues not gon go there either. argh god do i hate issues. yesh. anywho random song of the day......

Gangsta's Paradise
By: Coolio

Verse 1:
As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I take a look at my life and realize there's not much left,
coz I've been blastin and laughin so long,
that even my mama thinks that my mind is gone,
but I ain't never crossed a man that didn't deserve it,
me be treated like a punk you know that's unheard of,
you better watch how you're talking,
and where you're walking,
or you and your homies might be lined in chalk.
I really hate to trip but i gotta,
loc As I Grow I see myself in the pistol smoke,
fool I'm the kinda G the little homies wanna be like,
on my knees in the night,
saying prayers in the streetlight,

Chorus:
been spending most their lives, living in the gangsta's paradise been spending most their lives, living in the gangsta's paradise keep spending most our lives, living in the gangsta's paradise keep spending most our lives, living in the gangsta's paradise

Verse 2:
They got the situation,
they got me facin',
I can't live a normal life,
I was raised by the stripes,
so I gotta be down with the hood team,
too much television watching got me chasing dreams,
I'm an educated fool with money on my mind,
got my 10 in my hand and a gleam in my eye,
I'm a loc'd out gangsta set trippin' banger,
and my homies is down so don't arouse my anger,
fool death ain't nothing but a heartbeat away,
I'm living life,
do or die,
what can I say?
I'm 23 now,
but will I live to see 24,
the way things are going I don't know.

Chorus

Verse 3:
Tell me why are we,
so blind to see,
That the one's we hurt,
are you and me,
been spending most their lives,
living in the gangsta's paradise
been spending most their lives,
living in the gangsta's paradise
spending most our lives,
living in the gangsta's paradise
spending most our lives,
living in the gangsta's paradise
Power and the money,
money and the power,
minute after minute,
hour after hour,
everybody's running,
but half of them ain't looking,
what's going on in the kitchen,
but I don't know what's kickin',
they say I gotta learn,
but nobody's here to teach me,
if they can't understand it,
how can they reach me,
I guess they can't,
I guess they won't,
I guess they front,
that's why I know my life is out of luck,
fool been spending most their lives,
living in the gangsta's paradise
been spending most their lives,
living in the gangsta's paradise
spending most our lives,
living in the gangsta's paradise
spending most our lives,
living in the gangsta's paradise
Tell me why are we,
so blind to see
That the one's we hurt,
are you and me
Tell me why are we,
so blind to see
That the one's we hurt,
are you and me

Chorus

well well well

02.08.04 (8:03 am) [edit]

i talked to amanda for about an hour last night and at first she didnt seem to be too happy about my antics. but oh well, she'll get over it in time. i was only having a little fun you know. anyone would understand that. but i wasnt cheating. so yea. or at least i dont see it as cheating. and yea. i dunno. so much stress i needed an out you know. most people dont understand that. but oh well.

[u]Broken[/u]
By: 12 Stones

Alone again again alone, Patiently waiting by the phone, Hoping that you will call me home, The pain inside my love denied, Hopes and dreams swallowed by pride. Everything I need it lies in you.

‘Cause I’m broken, I know I need you now, ‘Cause deep inside I'm broken, You see the way I live, I know I know your heart is broken, When I turn away, I need to be broken, Take the pain away.

I question why you chose to die, When you knew your truth I would deny, You look at me, The tears begin to fall, And all in all faith is blind, But I fail time after time, Daily in my sin I take your life, All the hate deep inside, Slowly covering my eyes, All these things I hide, Away from you again, All this fear holding me, My heart is cold and I believe, Nothing’s gonna change, Until I'm broken.

I LOVE AMANDA!!!!

Amanda

02.07.04 (7:17 am) [edit]

yep thas it, im just waiting for Amanda to come on, since i have no idea what time she'll be on today. one thing for sure im not getting off till i talk to her today. i dont care.
well my personal issues that i've been dealing with for the past few weeks have finally been resolved. somewhat. i beleve. lets put it this way they've been resolved enough to move on with life. yesh. hmm anywho
lets see Keillie is doin well in school and shes just the same little princess although i feel like shes been 5 forever. lets move onto 6 shall we. i swear 5 must be the terror age for boys and the whinning age for girls. i take the whinning no more. "daddy i want it! NOW" argh. cant do this no more. i swear ive never yelled so much in my life before this 5 year old turned 5, if that makes any sense whatsoever.
family, well thats the same as ever. my mom still truckin with two jobs but shes very happy, with the lawyer firm and then the hospital at night, you couldnt believe that she still looks 24. seriously. most people look older with all that stress. but i guess she just takes it and applies it where its needed you know. shes awesome.
my moms boyfriend is pretty cool. Anthony i think is the best guy my mom chose so far. of course we cant tell her that. so shhh! our secret, secrets are fun.
well yea. my life is pretty much just as busy as ever, with my music and then my job and friends and family. but its mostly friends, my job and my music. i just keep hitting out lyrics and it doesnt stop. i dunno. i just gotta apply them to music. yesh.
well im about to bounce now, im sure you getting tired of me, cus im gettig tired of typing, now mana best be coming on soon:).
Random song of the day:

[u]No More (Baby I'ma Do Right) Remix[/u]
By: 3LW feat. Nas

Nas:
Everyday she walk by,
See me on the same block,
Same crew,
like she never seen rocks,
Chain watch,
rims blue,
Different color boots on,
park Yukon,
You predicates ex-cons,
rip arms,
bettin' chips,
Puff medicine play my gangsta beats,
Tunnel bangers,
Flex,
Clue tapes bang in the streets,
I'm just a fly,
thuggish baller shorty anxious to meet,
Till I die keep wanting to head mink to the feet,
But shorty jail bait,
might get me five to life,
Maybe in time you can be Nas's wife,
Place school,
study law,
I'mma pay your tuition,
Come on campus,
buy you books,
Do your babysitting,
My unusual style make your future unwild,
When you get older I'mma bless you with a child,
See now you was unaware that this thug had affection,
Let me be your angel and I'll be your protection.

3LW:
It's either you will, Either you won't, Sometimes you do, Sometimes you don't, Sometimes it's yes, Other times it's no, But I can't take it no more. Take your wrong and make it right, Just say you can make up your mind, Is it serious or isn't it? Cause I can't take it no more
Make 'em clap to this...
Baby, baby you keep Putting things before me, But I was there for you when you had nothing, So baby, baby
Basically it's them or me, Now or never, Give me all or nothing.
Make 'em clap to this...
Baby, baby You keep telling me you're changing, You promise you will be a better man, But no soon as you see your peeps, There you go switching out on me, And we're back at square one again,

Nas:
Don 3,
can't get with me,
Y'all just a child-child,
Maybe I can get you with little Sammie and Bow Wow,
Please girls try to understand me now-now,
Like my little sisters I'mma hold you down-down,
Got the whole world in your hands,
Three little woman got these young boys tryna be their man,
Do your thing shorty but if they get disrespectful,
Get on your cell phone call big brother Esco,
Now let's go.

3LW:
Cause all this back and forth, In and out, ups and downs
Is beginning to wear me out, See you gotta tell me now
Tell me now, Don't wait till the end, It's either me or your friends, Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Trackmasters:
Remix, Trackmasters, Remix
Remix, Precision, Remix
We about to make ya clap to this
Remix, uh

well i kinda spoke to my lovely amanda.

02.06.04 (10:10 am) [edit]

yea Amanda kiwinoted me the other day so i got to note her back. i then found out from her friend, that she was online yesterday, but i wasnt i had to work. so now its 1255pm and im gonna see if shes gonna come on today. i really miss her. its been killing me not to be able to talk to her for over 2 months. so yea. i dont know what she did or whatever it doesnt really matter. i just wanna talk to her again.
to make matters worse, Laska isnt gonna be on for a while also. but hey if Amanda's allowed on again then all is well. and im a happy guy. :)
random song for the day:

[u]All That Never Happens[/u]
By: 10,000 maniacs

She walks alone on the brick lane, the breeze is blowing.
A year had changed her forever, just like her grey home.
He used to live so close here, we'd look for places I can't remember.
The world was safe when she knew him, she tried to hold him, hold on forever.
For all that never happens and all that never will be,
a candle burning for the love we seldom keep.
The earth was raw in her fingers, she overturned it.
Considered planting some flowers, they wouldn't last long,
no one to tend them. It's funny how these things go,
you were the answer to all the questions.
The memories made her weary, she shuddered slowly, she didn't want to.
As a distant summer he began to whisper, and threw a smile her way.
She looked into the glass, liquid surface showing that they were melding,
together present past.
So where can I go from here?
The color fading, he didn't answer.
She felt him slip from her vision.
She tried to hold him, hold on forever.
So close forever, in a silent frozen sleep.

ahh yep more drama

02.01.04 (5:47 pm) [edit]

its nothing that i really wanna talk about. its more like personal issues thats why i havent been writing in a few days, i also havent been online in a few days either. lol. im just getting back into the reutine of things. well yea.

[u]Jenny[/u]

Wake up in the morning one thing on my mind
Cheerios with vanilla on my milk
It's all mine, I devour, take a shower
Grab the papers and sack
See ya'll later I'm packed
Smoked up till I get cataract
Laid in the Cadillac
Switch lanes out of the driveway
Like I was on the highway (yeah)
I ride a big boy
Y'all ride a similac and oh my Cadillac
Has 50's in the back
Playin' Rick James and Tina, so relaxing
Passed on by the neighbor Red Lane
They called him insane
Here's Mr. Chang limps with a cane
Had a crush on Ms. Payne
Blessed and he's strange
Now he can't walk the same
Innocent three-legged rover
Kinda says four-leafed clover
His owner smooth Jason
Yeah Jane like Playstation
Had the girl's hearts racin'
Like you're nervous and pacin'
Well I swerved the curb
Corner action like verb
Cops throwin' the bird you heard
I'm on I-20 wit' 20's (unh-huh)
And beats I got plenty can't wait to see Jenny

I been all around the world, met a lot of girls
Jenny, yeah that's my dog
I been so many places, seen so many faces
Still ain't none like my dog
I been around the world and back again
Ain't nobody like her yet
Don't forget your homies, can't forget my homies

Well, as sun starts to dim and I'm under the speed limit
And there's hectic traffic too, got off at exit 22
Stopped at Lorraine's she's datin' Mr. Kane
And she's just as deranged and insane in the brain
Man she blew up his Range, shouted things so profane
Unh-huh (sounds like Left Eye)
So we go to Pit's Lane, way over by the main
To get the rest of our girls
With them ghetto ass names
Toleda, Bonnie, Quesha
With them hairdo's
Look like they went through a seizure
You know, went to the movies
And you can't see the feature (ha ha)
And Jenny's father's a preacher
And see her unleashed around daddy so sweet
Without daddy she a freak (she a ho!)
Ain't never seen her with the same nigga for weeks
Naahh wait a minute (yeah)
I seen her three times with Saadiq

I been all around the world, met a lot of girls
Jenny, yeah that's my dog
I been so many places, seen so many faces
Still ain't none like my dog
I been around the world and back again
Ain't nobody like her yet
Don't forget your homies, can't forget my homies

Pull up to Jenny's and she's waitin' outside
My hair ain't done get your ass in the ride
It's Friday night, me I'm high and tight
Jenny sippin' on the Henny, I'm drivin' tonight
My exhaust is about to ignite, we turn on Morland Ave.
And then I see these blue lights (blue lights make me nervous)
I feel fright Jenny yells I ain't goin' to jail tonight girl
So anyway I'm drivin' slow, then enormously fast
Then Jenny dumps her shit and I slammed on the gas
She says I'm fucked up (ha!)
Not to mention all the weed in the ride
And the way we drive and are stupid to ride
I bust a right on Memorial Drive (go left left)
She threw out the Henn and I threw out the stash
And we was goin' so fuckin' and oh so fast
And we stopped, the cops had caught us at last
Knew I forgot somethin' I might have needed some gas
So the cop walked up knocked on the window
I dropped, I ain't drunk, I forgot Jenny's uncle's a cop
Yo relax it's me man, you just forgot your keys
Your keys? Dumbass nigga
I can't believe I threw out my stash
I shoulda whooped your ass
I know I have some crazy Friday nights
But somethin' about Jenny makes it alright

I been all around the world, met a lot of girls
Jenny, yeah that's my dog
I been so many places, seen so many faces
Still ain't none like my dog
I been around the world and back again
Ain't nobody like her yet
Don't forget your homies, can't forget my homies

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