Well my life has kind of been not so hectic since the last time i have written. its still hectic as ever. working two jobs, which i really dont need two but its life and love my second one more than the first. FBI agents have the best life yo, except for all that paper work and shit. on the scene is what i wanna, gotta, do. that is true.
Well as for my mom and planning the wedding shes going crazy. theres so much to be done and so little time. i mean think of it as reality, its next september! thats not exactly 2 years from now like she planned thats more like 11 months from now. shes going crazy! i try to help her as much as i can, but what can i really do? yea ill come home after work and try to keep the kids away from her. Anthony does a great job at that, he's already stepping into as a father figure and taking on the disciplinary role as a father. which he needs to be, not so as to me but my brother and sister. i for one remember my father all too well, and he wasnt much of a father. That is why i decided to adopt my neice, so i can offer her a better life and be a better father than what she had. she had no life in the adoption center and she had no father. she had no family that cared for and loves her. now she does. and i promised myself as well as her i wouldnt be the kind of father that i had. well anyway back to my mom, she wanted her wedding 2 years from now, the same month and same date. well they were booked for that date two years from now and the only one that they had open was the one 11 months from now. which my mom wasnt too fond of but in order to get her date she settled for that and now is going absolutely insane with wedding arrangements. well thats my mom for you.
as for the updates on the group, Dora had a really well written song which in my opinion Robby destroyed lol. well he didnt destroy it i think he's just feeling burried in the dirt because he and his girlfriend of 1year and 10 months broke up for reason he didnt care to share with me. so that i have to figure, is why he changed her sweet song of "what hurts the most" to "what hurts the most" and made it a sad, depressing song. although we made sure to keep her orginal copy of the song so we can use later. Robby has been writting all the songs lately he also wrote one called "gotta go home" and Hollie wrote one called "breaks my heart" whats up with all the sad songs? its kinda depressing dont you think? i think so. →argh. damn it. ←D thats all your fault! someones farting in here. lol. anyway im out. enjoy.

Angel
By: Dru Hill

Verse 1:
Girl, it's been so long Since I held you in my arms So I picked up pen and paper And decided to write you a song Things just ain't the same Since you took your love away All I have is dark and lonely days Cuz the sun don't shine my way Wish that I can find the words To say to show you love is real The words just can't express the way I feel

Chorus:
You're my angel My sun up in the sky We've been through hell and back together Why you wanna leave me now Only you can ease the pain I feel
And wipe my tears away Won't you fly back home and make me whole again

Verse 2:
Baby not a day goes by That I don't want to cry When I think of what we had And how you walked out of my life All I had was yours to take Till my heart you chose to break Still wish that I can make love to you Just one more time for old times sake If only I could find the words To say to show you love is real The words just can't express the way I feel

Chorus

Bridge:
Come back home Come back home Cuz without you here beside me, girl
My house is not a home Only you can ease the pain I feel And wipe my tears away Won't you fly back home And make me whole again

Chorus

Jesus talk about depressing. WHY CANT I GET AWAY FROM THE DEPRESSING SONGS!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

is actually very hectic in my life right now and kind of worry-some to. i havent heard from Amanda in the past week or so, so im kinda worried about that. wondering if shes doing okay.  yea actually i think its more wondering than worrying. i dont have to worry about her too much. on the other hand she does most of the worrying for both of us. lol. shes always worrying over me.
my home life is heating up also. my mom is running around like a nervous emotional wreck today planning for a wedding that will be September 23 2005. thats next year! shes also working two wonderful, fullfilling, glamorous (if you would say that i do cus she gets sooo much back out of them), hectic, demanding, on the go jobs that she loves so much. then she comes home and cooks dinner for everybody but me cuz im usually not home to eat any of the time. so shes really busy. theres not one day that she has for herself anymore. monday through friday mornings shes busy with her law firm company (no its not the same one i work for) and then monday through friday nights shes busy with the childrens hospital. Then on the weekends shes planning for a wedding, shes keeping Mike and Kelly in line also babysitting sometimes for Keillie when i cant find one. so shes really busy and i give her sooo many props for still being the loving, caring, patient, and understanding mother that she always was and still is even with her hectic and demanding lifestyle she has on her time right now.
as for me im just busy with school, work, keillie, and the group projects. but as of right now im not sure i can stand 100% behind this TWO project, i will continue to support my friends Dora, Robby, and Holly. But until i can get out of this hecticness my life is in and finish helping my mom as best i can, my time will be limited for those following reasons.
as for the group since i dont have a working computer at all and i know that the group dates are running at their low right now and new ones have to be posted take it as ALL GROUP REHEARSALS  will be in the Suffolk Community College Riverhead Building down in the Audio/Visual room on Wednesdays during Common Hour. ALL GROUP RECORDINGS will be at my house. ANY changes in this i will state otherwise at rehearsals.
i guess thats all for now i'll catch ya'll laters.

Dance With Me
By: 112

Chorus:
I see you looking at me I can tell by your eyes that your feeling me and I really want you to get close with me. So wont you dance with me...dance with me. My drop tops in the parking lot and I wanna take you back to my spot. We can snuggle a little, more time to us. So wont you dance with me...dance with me!

Verse 1:
I can see you over there just chillin' with your girlfriends, can't believe your by your self you should be hear with me, chillin' with me, drinkin' with me, freakin' with me. Oooohhh whoa, whoa!

Chorus

Verse 2:
I can see it in your eyes that your looking at the time. You wanna leave this party and I know you wanna leave with me. To chill with me, to drink with me, to freak with me, oh baby!

Chorus(2X)

Bridge:
Everybody sing along.... If you sexy and you know it clap your hands If you sexy and you know it clap your hands If you sexy and you know it and you really wanna show it, if you sexy and you know it clap your hands Yeah!

Chorus(3X)

right now im using the school computers cus mine is all fucked up, i found out that i have a virus. well thats always good news to hear. right now i dont have the time to take my machine down to get it fixed, money is no option its just the time. my brother is still stupid as fuck, i dont know whats wrong with this kid. i swear. everyone is in a bad mood all of a sudden and honestly i dont want any part of it. there hasnt been much going on lately at all come to think about it. so im out.

Cleanin Out My Closet
By: Eminem

Intro:
Where's my snare? I have no snare on my headphones There you go Yeah
Yo yo

Verse 1:
Have you ever been hated, or discriminated against?
I have, I've been protested and demostrated against
Picket signs for my wickid rhymes, look at the times
Sick as the mind, of the mother fucking kid that's behind
All this commotion, emotions run deep as oceans exploding
Tempers flaring from parents just blow em off and keep going
Not taking nothing from no one, give em hell long as I'm breathing
Keep kicking ass in the morning, and taking names in the evening
Leave them with a taste sour as vinegar in they mouth
See they can trigger me, but they'll never figure me out
Look at me now, I betcha prolly sick of me now
Ain't you mama, I'ma make you look so ridiculous now

Chorus:
I'm sorry mama I never meant to hurt you I never meant make you cry But tonight, I'm cleaning out my closet One More Time I'm sorry mama I never meant to hurt you I never meant make you cry But tonight, I'm cleaning out my closet Ha!

Verse 2:
I got some skeletons in my closet
And I dont know if no one knows it
So before they throw me inside my coffin and close it
I'ma expose it, I'll take you back to '73
Before I ever had a multi-platinum selling CD
I was a baby maybe I was just a couple of months
My faggot father must've had his panties up in a bunch
'Cause he split, I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye
No I don't, on second thought I just fucking wished he would die
I look at Hailey, and I couldn't picture leaving her side
Even if I hated Kim, I grin my teeth and I try to make it work
With her atleast for Hailie's sake I maybe made some mistakes
But I'm only human but I'm man enough to face them today
What I did was stupid, no doubt it was dumb
But the smartest shit I did was take the bullets outta that gun
Cause I'd of killed em, shit I would've shot Kim and him both
It's my life, I'd like to welcome ya'll to the Eminem show

Chorus 

Verse 3:
Now I would never diss my own mama just to get recognition
Take a second to listen for who you think this record is dissing
But put yourself in my position, just try to envision
Witnessing your mama popping prescription pills in the kitchen
Bitching that someone's always going through her purse when shit's
missing
Going through public housing systems, victim of munchhausen syndrome
My whole life I was made to believe I was sick when I wasn't
'Til I grew up, now I blew up it makes you sick to your stomach,
doesn't it?
Wasn't it the reason you made that CD for me, ma?
So you could try to justify the way you treated me, ma?
But guess what, your getting older now and it's cold when your lonely
And Nathan's growing up so quick he's gonna know that your phoney
And Hailie's getting so big now, you should see her, she's beautiful
But you'll never see her, she wont even be at your funeral hahaha
See what hurts me the most, is you wont admit you was wrong
Bitch, do your song, keep telling yourself that you was a mum
But how dare you try to take what you didn't help me to get
You selfish bitch, I hope you fucking burn in hell for this shit!
Remember when Ronnie died and you said you wished it was me?
Well guess what, I am dead, dead to you as can be

Chorus 

well yesterday i went with my uncle in Queens to do an FBI search. this is like my training for when i become an FBI agent. i seriously want to, that job is sooo cool. oh my god i love it like you wouldnt believe. if you look in the newspaper today the whole story is in there. Newsday paper. so if your in another state im not sure whether or not the story will be in there. but you never know.
besides that my mom was kinda flipping last night because she had just cleaned the house and Mike came home and trashed the kitchen. i cant believe that kid is so stupid you know? i swear how the hell you gon come home knowing mom just cleaned and she told you and make a disaster area, like a bomb went off, in our kitchen? i heard her yelling at him and she forced him to clean up his mess. that was honestly a sight to see. that was great, he deserves it.
i dont think that there is anything else too exciting going on. so i guess that im out.

'97 Bonnie and Clyde
By: Eminem

Intro:
Just the two of us.. (8X)

Verse 1:
Baby your da-da loves you (hey) And I'ma always be here for you (hey) no matter what happens You're all I got in this world I would never give you up for nothin Nobody in this world is ever gonna keep you from me I love you C'mon Hai-Hai, we goin to the beach
Grab a couple of toys and let da-da strap you in the car seat
Oh where's mama? She's takin a little nap in the trunk
Oh that smell (whew!) da-da musta runned over a skunk
Now I know what you're thinkin - it's kind of late to go swimmin
But you know your mama, she's one of those type of women
that do crazy things, and if she don't get her way, she'll throw a fit
Don't play with da-da's toy knife, honey, let go of it (no!)
And don't look so upset, why you actin bashful?
Don't you wanna help da-da build a sand castle? (yeah!)
And mama said she wants to show how far she can float
And don't worry about that little boo-boo on her throat
It's just a little scratch - it don't hurt, her was eatin
dinner while you were sweepin and spilled ketchup on her shirt
Mama's messy isn't she? We'll let her wash off in the water
and me and you can pway by ourselves, can't we?

Chorus:
Just the two of us.. (2X) And when we ride! Just the two of us.. (2X)
Just you and I! Just the two of us.. (2X) And when we ride! Just the two of us.. (2X) Just you and I!

Verse 2:
See honey.. there's a place called heaven and a place called hell
A place called prison and a place called jail
And da-da's probably on his way to all of em except one
Cause mama's got a new husband and a stepson
And you don't want a brother do ya? (Nah)
Maybe when you're old enough to understand a little better
I'll explain it to ya
But for now we'll just say mama was real real bad
She was bein mean to dad and made him real real mad
But I still feel sad that I put her on time-out
Sit back in your chair honey, quit tryin to climb out (WAHH!)
I told you it's okay HaiHai, wanna ba-ba?
Take a night-night? Nan-a-boo, goo-goo ga-ga?
Her make goo-goo ca-ca? Da-da change your dia-dee
Clean the baby up so her can take a nighty-nighty
Your dad'll wake her up as soon as we get to the water
Ninety-seven Bonnie and Clyde, me and my daughter

Chorus

Verse 3:
Wake up sweepy head we're here, before we pway
we're gonna take mama for a wittle walk along the pier
Baby, don't cry honey, don't get the wrong idea
Mama's too sweepy to hear you screamin in her ear (ma-maa!)
That's why you can't get her to wake, but don't worry
Da-da made a nice bed for mommy at the bottom of the lake
Here, you wanna help da-da tie a rope around this rock? (yeah!)
We'll tie it to her footsie then we'll roll her off the dock
Ready now, here we go, on the count of free..
One.. two.. free.. WHEEEEEE! (whoooooshhhhh)
There goes mama, spwashin in the wa-ta
No more fightin wit dad, no more restraining order
No more step-da-da, no more new brother
Blow her kisses bye-bye, tell mama you love her (mommy!)
Now we'll go play in the sand, build a castle and junk
But first, just help dad with two more things out the trunk

Chorus

Outro:
Just me and you baby is all we need in this world Just me and you
Your da-da will always be there for you Your da-da's always gonna love you Remember that If you ever need me I will always be here for you
If you ever need anything, just ASK Da-da will be right there Your da-da loves you I love you baby