As they say 'do onto others as you would have them do onto you.' Well thats what I tell Keillie to do in school. She has done that so far, until yesterday that is. A boy in her class was making fun of her, now as I tell her, 'someone makes fun of you do it back but 10 times worse.' <- in other words they fart on you, you shit on them. Yes I tell her that. So she does it, I know its no way to solve a problem but you know what? The boy left her alone, lol. Yes he did. Hey thats the way the ball bounces. I'm raising her to be tough, but a lady, a young tough respectable lady. Thats what she is, her adult personality comes out more and more each day and boy does she show it. Shes gonna be another me. :) That is good in a way and bad in another. But I think she knows that some of the things that daddy does is wrong and that she shouldnt do them. So I think that she will be just fine growing up.
Well my mom is still going around like a crazy mad hatter with the wedding plans. Although also she is still renovating our house and boy is that fun. My room should be next, then Keillie's room will be last. My mom will then start to re-renovate the downstairs. Some of the things she's leaving and others shes changing. When we bought this house, all the rooms and colors were pretty much the same. A lot of browns, oaks, beiges and whites. Its all the same. My mom is a very colorful person and loves a lot of color. So shes changing the room colors and some furniture into colors. Of course shes making the living room a really nice white diamond color. The whole room is going to be white diamond. She really likes that color. Esp since she bought her truck in that color. :D
Ummm...I guess thats how the slicer slices meat today. I'm out! PEACE!!

Superman
By: Eminem

Intro:
I know what you wanna hear...

Chorus:
'Cuz I know you want me baby I think I want you too... I think I love you baby...I think I love you too...I'm here to save you girl, come be in Shady's world, I wanna gorw together, let's let our love unfurl, You know you want me baby, You know I want you too, They call me Superman, I'm here to rescue you, I wanna save you girl, come be in Shady's world...oh boy you drive me crazy...Bitch you make me hurl.

Verse 1:
They call me Superman,
Leap tall hoes in a single bound,
I'm single now,
Got no ring on this finger now,
I'll never let another chick bring me down,
In a relationship, save it bitch, babysit? you make me sick,
Superman aint savin shit, girl you can jump on shady's dick,
Straight from the hip, cut to the chase,
I'll tell a mo'fuckin slut to her face,
Play no games, say no names, ever since I broke up with what's her
face,
I'm a different man, kiss my ass, kiss my lips, bitch why ask?
Kiss my dick, hit my cash, i'd rather have you whip my ass,
Don't put out? i'll put you out,
Won't get out? i'll push you out,
Puss blew out, copin shit,
Wouldn't piss on fire to put you out,
Am I too nice? buy you ice,
Bitch if you died, wouldn't buy you life,
What you tryin to be, my new wife?
What you Mariah? fly through twice,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come, they go,
Saturday through sunday monday,
Monday through sunday yo,
Maybe i'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe...

Chorus

Verse 2:
Don't get me wrong,
I love these hoes,
It's no secret,
Everybody knows,
Can't we fuck?
Bitch so what?
That's about as far as your buddy goes,
We'll be friends,
I'll call you again,
I'll chase you around every bar you attend,
Never know what kind of car i'll be in,
Woman Screaming
We'll see how much you'll be partying then,
You don't want that,
Neither do I,
I don't wanna flip when I see you with guys,
Too much pride,
Between you and I,
Not a jealous man, but females lie,
But I guess that's just what sluts do,
How could it ever be just us two?
Never loved you enough to trust you,
We just met and I just fucked you,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come they go,
Saturday through Sunday monday,
Monday through Sunday yo,
Maybe I'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
'Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe... 

Chorus 2x

Verse 3:
First thing you said...
I'm not phazed,
I hang around big stars all day,
I don't see what the big deal is anyway,
You're just plain ol' Marshall to me...
Ooh yeah girl run that game...
Haily Jade...I love that name,
Love that tattoo...what's that say?
'rot in pieces' aww that's great...
First off you don't know Marshall,
Add also, don't grow partial,
That's ammo for my arsenal,
I'll snap you off that bar stool,
There goes another lawsuit,
Leave handprints all accross you,
Good lordy-wody you must be blown off that water bottle,
You want what you can't have,
Ooh girl that's too damn bad,
Don't touch what you can't grab,
End up with two back hands,
Put Anthrax on a Tampax and slap you till you can't stand,
Girl you just blew your chance,
Don't mean to ruin your plans,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come they go,
Saturday through Sunday Monday,
Monday through Sunday yo,
Maybe I'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
'Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe... 

Chorus

Yea today is going to be another boring day in the Joanson history. Well as usually, I have to go to class and its gonna suck mad ass today. I really dont want to go to my first class. Its this type of computer thingy and I have a really annoying professor, that i seriously hate. She just gets on my nerves. So anyway. After that i have a business class which is pretty good, i enjoy that one. And of course i have my Philosophy class, which is my last class of the day. The one day besides wednesdays that i see Dora. Which is all good, you know. I really dont care one way or another. I dont see her as much as we used to hang out, but that was a while ago. When we had rehearsals every saturday. Which that got a little annoying.
My mom is going crazy with her wedding plans. Shes fucking flipping out because the assholes didnt do her flower arrangements right the first time like she had asked them to. So yea she's flipping out on that one. Talk about bridezillas!
The only thing that is really happening today is my daughter. Thats about as much excitement as I'm gonna see today.
Well my wonderful bloggers I'm out for today. Theres not much else to talk about. Cuz like i said its gonna be a pretty boring day. PEACE!

My Dad's Gone Crazy
By: Eminem

Intro:
Tuning Tv Eminem Snortin Crack

Tv Presenter:
Hello boys and girls Today we're gonna talk about father and daughter relationships Do you have a daddy? I'll bet you do (Door opens) who's your daddy? (Hailie: Daddy, what're you doing?)  Haha Ok then! everybody, listen up!  I'm goin to hell, who's comin' with me? (Somebody, please help him! giggle i think my dad gone crazy!)

Verse 1:
There's no mountain i can't climb
There's no tower too high,
No plane that i can't learn how to fly
What do i gotta do to get through to you,
destroy you
There ain't nothing i can't take this chainsaw to
Hailey Makes Chainsaw Sound
Fuckin' brain's brawn, and brass balls
I cut 'em off, i got 'em pickled and bronzed in a glass jar
Inside of a hall,
with my framed autograph,
Sunglasses with elton john's name,
on my drag wall
I'm out the closet, i been lying my ass off
All this time, me and dre been fucking with hats off
(Suck it marshall)
Tell laura and her husband to back off
Before i push this motherfucking button and blast off
And launch one of these russians, and that's all
(Hailie Makes Explosion Sound)
Blow every fucking thing, except afghanistan on the map, off
We wanna stop, we wanna knock the crap off
(Knocking)
Haley, tell 'em baby 
(My dad's lost it)

Chorus: 
There's really nothin' else to say ha, i can't explain it (I think my dad gone crazy!) A little help from hailie jade would, should tell them maybe (I think my dad gone crazy!) Theres nothing you could do to save it, could ever change me (I think my dad gone crazy!) There's noone on earth that can save me, not even halie (I think my dad gone crazy!)

Verse 2:
It's like my mother always told me
(Eminem Impersinates His Mom)
Rnrnrnrnrnrrrr, n codeine n goddamit, you little motherfucker
If you aint got nothin' nice to say then don't say nothin'
Er..Fuck that shit, bitch, eat a motherfuckin' dick
Chew on a prick, and lick a million motherfuckin' cocks for second
I'd rather put out a motherfucking gospel record
I'd rather be a pussy-whipped bitch, eat pussy
And have pussy-lips glued to my face with a clit-ring in my nose
Then quit bringin my flos, quit giving me my ammo
Can't you see why i'm so mean?
if y'all leave me alone, this wouldn't be my ammo
I wouldn't have to go eenie meenie minie mo
Catch a homo by his toe,
man i don't know no more
Am i the only fuckin one who's normal any more?
Dad

Chorus

Verse 3:
My songs can make you cry, take you by surprise
And at the same time, make you dry your eyes with the same rhyme
So what you're seeing is a genius at work
Which to me isn't work, so it's easy to misinterpret it at first,
Cuz when i speak, it's tongue in cheek
I'd gank my fuckin teeth before id ever bite my tongue
I'd slice my gums, get struck by fuckin' lightning twice at once
And die and come back as vanilla ice's son
And walk around the rest of my life spit on
And kicked and hit with shit, every time i sung
Like R. Kelly as soon as "bump n' grind" comes on
More pain inside o' my brain, in the eyes of a little girl inside of a plane
Aimed at the world trade, standin' on ronny's grave,
Screaming at the sky, the clouds gather as clyde mathers and bonnie jade
And nash briddy musta just stop it
Parents are pissed,
but the kids love it
Nine millimeter, heater's desk, and two-seaters with meat cleavers
I don't blame you,
i wouldn't let Hailie listen to me neither

Chorus

Outro:
Crazy
laughs
You're funny daddy!

That she gives up all hope on being with me and that i dont care. Its not that dont care, i do honestly. I care a lot. I just dont want to do something that I'm not comfortable with doing. And moving in with someone before I'm married, I'm not comfortable with doing. Cause then I'll never get married. A few kids maybe but never marriage. Thats just the type of guy i am. Thats why i need to be married first and foremost. If I'm not married, then theres nothing holding me into living with someone, I could just go and do what i do now. Not come home until 2 or 3 am. She wouldnt be my wife so there be no reason to get pissed at me. I just dont understand why people do it. But thats just me. Besides i though that she wanted to go to college in a different state that wasnt New York. So its different if she wants to spend holidays here with me, like in a hotel or something and then go back to college. Thats totally different than living with someone. You know, I mean, do you get what I'm trying to say here? I dont even think i fully understand it, but i know what I'm saying. Just trying to make Amanda understand me also. Just hopes she does, I'm not who she thinks i am in some aspects. What i might say i could or would do, i might not do when it comes down to it. Im other aspects I'm exactly who she thinks i am. Grant it if she hits me repeatly (meaning more than 7 times in a row or in the same arguement) i WILL hit her back, i wont deny that. I have hit women before because they have hit me repeatly. I wont say I'm proud of it but thats also something that i cant help sometimes. I try to hold it back for as long as possible but it doesnt happen all the time. Thats the same with other things. Like my partying, I love to party for one, and that part of my life I'm not going to change unless I'm married. Being married you have to change certain aspects of your life and that would be one of them. That also goes along with the drinking to. If i party 3 times a week, then i drink once a week or maybe twice a week. But that, to, would have to be cut down. I think of it as you either take the person how they are or you dont. You love them for who they are and you respect them for how they are. I, for one, love Amanda for who she is, the good and the bad, and i repect for how she is, again the good and the bad. Hopefully she will read this and maybe understand a little bit more of what makes me tick and how i am.

Amanda I love you, I always will.

Drug Ballad
By: Eminem

Verse 1:
Back when Mark Walhberg was Marky Mark
This is how we used to make the party start
We used to mix Hen' with Bacardi Dark
And when it, kicks in you can hardly talk
And by the, sixth gin you're gonna probably crawl
And you'll be, sick then and you'll probably barf
And my pre-diction is you're gonna probably fall
Either somewhere in the lobby or the hallway wall
And everything's spinning
You're beginin' to think women
are swimming in pink linen again in the sink
Then in a couple of minutes that bottle of Guiness is finished
You are now allowed to officially slap bitches
You have the right to remain violent and start wilin'
Start a fight with the same guy that was smart eyin' you
Get in your car, start it, and start drivin'
Over the island and cause a 42 car pile-up
Earth calling, pilot to co-pilot
Look at the life on this planet, sir, no sign of it
All I can see is a bunch of smoke flyin'
And I'm so high that I might die if I go by it
Let me out of this place
I'm outta place
I'm in outer space
I've just vanished without a trace
I'm going to a pretty place now where the flowers grow
I'll be back in an hour or so

Hook:
'Cause every time I go to try to leave
Smething keeps pullin' on my sleeve
I don't wanna, but I gotta stay
These drugs really got ahold of me
'Cause every time I try to tell them "no"
They won't let me ever let them go
I'm a sucka all I gotta say
These drugs really got ahold of me

Verse 2:
In third grade, all I used to do
Was sniff glue through a tube and play rubix cube
17 years later I'm as rude as jew
Scheming on the first chick with the hugest boobs
I've got no game
And every face looks the same
They've got no name
So I don't need game to play
I just say whatever I want to whoever I want
Whenever I want, wherever I want, however I want
However, I do show some respect to few
As ecstacy got me standing next to you
Getting sentimental as fuck spillin' guts to you
We just met
But I think I'm in love with you
But you're on it too
So you tell me you love me too
Wake up in the morning like "yo, what the fuck we do?"
I gotta go bitch
You know I have stuff to do
'Cause if I get caught cheatin' then I'm stuck with you
But in the long run
These drugs are probably going to catch up sooner or later
But fuck it, I'm on one
So let's enjoy
Let the X destroy your spinal cord
So it's not a straight line no more
'Til we walk around looking like some wind-up dolls
Shit's sticking out of our backs like a dinosaur
Shit, six hits won't even get me high no more
So bye for now
I'm going to try to find some more

Hook:

Verse 3:
That's the sound of a bottle when it's hollow
When you swallow it all wollow and drown in your sorrow
And tomorrow you're probably going to want to do it again
What's a little spinal fluid between you and a friend? Screw it
And what's a little bit of alcohol poisoning?
And what's a little fight?
Tomorrow you'll be boys again
It's your life
Live it however you wanna
Marijuana is everywhere
Where was you brought up?
It don't matter as long as you get where you're going
'Cause none of the shit is going to mean shit where we're going
They tell you to stop, but you just sit there ignoring
Even though you wake up feeling like shit every morning
But you're young
You've got a lot of drugs to do
Girls to screw
Parties to crash
Sucks to be you
If I could take it all back now, I wouldn't
I would have did more shit that people said that I shouldn't
But I'm all grown up now and upgraded and graduated
Did better drugs and updated
But I've still got a lot of growing up to do
I've still got a whole lot of throwing up to spew
But when it's all said and done I'll be 40
Before I know it with a 40 on the porch telling stories
With a bottle of Jack
Two grandkids in my lap
Babysiting for Haley while Haley's out getting smashed

Hook (2X)

Well i was at work yesterday and this person comes up to my desk at customer service/bookkeeping and hes like 'do you have any specials running? Like discounts?' I'm like 'the only special we have running is that there has been a lot of car accidents recently and we dont give discounts we're a law firm, we maybe cheaper than others or more expensive than others but you have that right to choose who you would like to be representing you in the long hall' I'm like dude its a fucking law firm we dont give out fucking discounts, we are not a supermarket or a mall or a candy store or a fucking motherfucker. get it got it good.
As for the rest of my life. ugh. Dora is bitching because she was saying that some bitch fucked her over. I'll kill the bitch. NO ONE messes with my best friend. I'll fucking kill the bitch. She told me the whole story and from what happened thats seriously fucked up aight? If she was a real friend that would have never have happened in the first place. I have had a problem similar to that one but i fucked up that person, and trust me it never happened again. You dont fuck with AJ, cuz AJ will fuck you up and thats all that there is to it.
I'm just a little pissed today. But hey thats okay. It was all made up and done for when i picked my daughter up from school today after i got out of school for me. If that sentence made any sense at all. She was so happy, with that smile on her face i just couldnt help myself but to be happy with her. I would do anything for her to see her smile and laugh and giggle and just be a happy 6 year old. Shes my world. Just dont fuck with Dad!

Luven Me
By: Nelly

Verse 1:
Ay yo ma,
how you doin,
it's ya son now
And I picked up the mic and put the drugs down
Now I'm tryin to do some things that'll make you proud
Instead of everytime I call it's to bail me out
Oh why didn't I listen to things you used to tell me
Knowin that everything that you said would never fail me
Like 'they got plans for ya
Ain't nothin I can do when them laws get they hands on ya'
But I ain't listenin,
even payin attention
I'm just tryna get mine
Takin advantage,
you would get two jobs at the same time
Ungrateful,
complainin about Nike and Polo signs
But you always come through,
and what do I do
I wreck both ya cars,
stole money from ya drawers
Sold dope out ya yard,
stayed into with them laws
Tryin to pay you back for all the stress that I caused
And always be there to give you whatever you want

Hook:
Don't stop ever lovin me Uh, uh, I said whatever you need Don't stop ever lovin me Uh, uh, I said you don't have to worry no more Don't stop ever lovin me Uh, uh, uh, 'cause ya son will be there for you Don't stop ever lovin me Uh, uh, uh
  
Verse 2:
Now verse two,
yeah that's for you boo
I send ya props 'cause you the only one that stuck through
When I'm upset and stressed you give me back rubs
When I'm depressed you give me head off in the bathtub, E-I!
On ya P's and Q's, on ya Q's and P's
You hear my beeper goin off and you just throw me my keys
Ain't even askin me yo is it coochie or G's
And for that reason now you can ask me for anything
Not a for real smoker but you choke with me
Not too hot about the drinkin but you toast with me
Livin at ya granny house you kept the dope for me
And wouldn't hesitate to go to court for me
Need money, my boo'll go and work the avenue
My boo'll fuck you up if I ask her to
That's why I do the things I do
And I will always be there to give you whatever you want

Hook

No i dont feel like adding the last verse of this song so fuck it aight!

~AMANDA~

Well first off I'm kinda worried since i haven't heard from Amanda in almost a month. Hope shes okay. Wonder where shes been and all that good stuff. so yea. I know that she has a lot of crap going on with her life right now. She also wants to come and be with me when she turns 18 but as of right now thats not looking so good. We have no place for her to stay in the house. I mean yea this is a huge 12 million dollar mansion but we only have/had one guest room. Since Keillie has moved in permatley over the past 3 years we no longer have a guest room. We were fixing it up so she was staying in with my sister. My brother has his own room and of course there is my own room. Anthony will be moving in with us since him and my mom are getting married. So it will be merging both houses together. Oh the fun that will be. I'm gettig off of the topic here. So yea we wont have any room for her. I dont know what she expects me to do or what she expects. But i guess we will cross that boundary when it comes right?
Robby has a new girlfriend and guess who it is, Holly. Yes the Holly from the group. Oh this should be good right? I cant wait. Once they break up---if they do break up- not saying i want them to but you know what I'm saying- we will need a new backup/straight up singer. So yea. Cant wait to see where this is going to go.
Thats the big part of my news today. There isnt really anything much else to talk about. Oh yea there is one other thing that i forgot to mention and thats this:
All i know is that Eminem just stole the words right outta my mouth with his new cd Encore and his song "Puke". He just stole the words right outta my mouth about the way i feel about someone. But I'm in such a good mood today that I'm not even gonna touch on that one. Peace!

N Dey Say
By: Nelly

Intro:
Yeah, Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah, Let's Go

Chorus:
Ha ha ha ha ha ohhhhhhhh N dey say ohhhhhh ohh ohhhhhhhh Ha ha ha ha ha ohhhhhhh N dey say ohhhhh ohhh ohh

Verse 1:
Hold up stop now let me get a look at ya,
Damn girl I ain't seen you since prom,
Come to think about it I can't believe its been that long,
I heard your man locked down now how long he gone.... Oh dat long
How the hell he get time like that?
Three strikes with possession, aww he ain't comin back,
He left you with 2 kids and bills all around,
Plus you found out he had another chick cross-town,
It's always the darkness right before the sun rises
And you gotta stay strong for the kids in their eyes and
Please don't despise and go against all brothers and
have a hatred in your heart and take it out on another,
I hate to sound Tupacish now momma but keep your head up,
But you gon' make it I promise you keep your head up
And that, that don't kill you only makes you stronger
And the will to succeed will only feed the hunger, Fo' Reel (Fo' Reel,
Fo' Reel)

Chorus

Verse 2:
I was at the gas station and a man walked past
With his sign will work for food, clothes or cash
and he asked if he could pump my gas, so I let him
Clean the windshield and throw out the trash, so I let him (Hey)
I even asked a brother his name, where he was from, got kids man and
what's their ages
He kinda stuttered for a second, he kinda looked surprised that anyone
would even take an
interest in his life
He said young brother dem the only words I done heard in the last year
that wasn't no
or get the fuck away from herrre
How could somthin so simple as general conversation
Mean much more than general conversation? (Hey)
You could tell life had beaten him down
Like he was in the title fight and this might be his last round
Sometimes the easiest things we take for granted
Until they gone, then realise we even had it, Fo' Reel (Fo' Reel, Fo'
Reel)

Chorus

Verse 3:
I used to think that life had a plan for me
Until I realised life had to be planned by me, see that's the key
I only deal with what I can see cause over history, mystery brought us
nothin but misery
Man more people done died in the name of the lord
Than in any natural disaster, disease or gangwars
Before guns there was swords and they was killin each other
and what's changed to this day still killin each other
Killin a brother while another mother cries for help
Man! we need to help a brother find themself
Feed em light 1, 2, 3
Hey! that's something every brother should see and that's Fo' Reel,
and that's Fo' Reel, and that's Fo' Reel

Chorus (3X)

Do you guys think that i really did shoot myself? no i didnt as you can tell. i just kinda wish i could just get away from it all. somehow someway, anyway, anywhere. i dont know but i got things to do, people to see, places to go, child to drop off you know all those good things that go along with being the father i am.
well my mom is still physco as ever. i swear ill be happy when its all said and done. oh but wait theres the whole factor that Anthony is in the mist of selling his house. Yep, he's selling his multi-million dollar mansion. that means he'll be moving into my moms house her 15 million dollar mansion, and then their bank accounts go together meanwhile all this is in the mist of them finishing up the pre-nup. which my mom needs esp since she has the greater bank account jumping. yea my mom is rich yo, isnt that the important thing? nah not really money aint nothing but a luxury. although my bank account is jumping, its getting there with 300 thou! and with my recent 3 paychecks that should bring it up to 400 thousand! yea baby! im speaking in all seriousness now. i'm not just joking for all you haters. I'm dead serious.
well i guess thats all for now im outs. PEACE! and remember i love all those LADIES!

Paradise
By: Nelly

Hook:
She said her name was (paradise) Thats what she said to me She said (paradise) Thats what she said it would be Cuz she, the finest women that ive ever did see And not to mention how she looked in them jeans She said her name was (paradise) Thats what she said to me She said (paradise)
Thats what she said it would be Cuz she was, the definition of a ghetto queen And you should see that apple bottom in jeans

Verse 1:
I met her on a sunday
She walkin down the runway
Fi fly
So fine what the fuck im gon say
And i just sit imtiently just waiting my turn
Waiting for my perfect chance so i can spit out my words
I think she openly spokenly damn i hope she notices me
Hopefully she go for me
So she on the boat with me
And ima take her places she can never imagine
Like water ski'in in costa rica
With snow mobiling in aspen
She prefare the cold
Winter, snow
And do shit like the tropical
Am i dreamin let me know
Tell me is it possible
That i could be the one she in search for a man
And she could be that one that end my search for romance
No time to slack now, act now, ima bout to crack now, i put my rap
down, mack down,
Aint no turning back now
I got the this feeling that she feelin the same
About to end this feeling games and just ask her her name

Hook

Verse 2:
So the next day monday
Im riding down the freeway
Hit her on the 2 way
Im like what you doing tuesday
She said that she was free anytime after 3
And every second after that will be reserved for me
I said thats good to know say no mo'
Ill be there around 4
Around 4 that fo' do
Phantom at your front door
You can take it for a ride
Keep it in papas sake
Debate it at fate and the
Reservations at 8
And after dinner, shampagne, walks along the beaches
With the moonlight shines on ya
And i cant create the words to explain myself
My temtation to feel ya body
Temtation to kiss them curves
One kiss two kiss she all on my neck now
Three kiss four kiss im all on her neck now that
Temperatures rising
Hips and thighs coming
Hynotizing man i dont wanna stop
It feels like

Hook

Verse 3:
They dont understand me because i really dont understand myself
I cant live with out (my girl)
Paradise is mine mayne
Anywhere and time mayne
She gon hold it down cuz she (my girl)
She love me she love me not
She love me to be on top
She love daddy to spank her cuz she (my girl)
And if you got ne doubts just ask when you see me out
Ill tell you who im talken bout
My Girl

This is a little something i wrote because all the shit my mom is complaining about with her wedding and this is just my way of dealing with it.

As though it seems,
my mom cant help to be on of those bridezillas.
ugh i just cant stand it anymore.
shes gong crazy with all of it.
and to think im the one staying in this hell hole
while she tries to figure it all out.
what to do?
im going insane,
i gotta get out and find a place to stay.
but for what to have more bills and shit i gotta pay.
im better of living at home even though shes a bridezilla.
although i see an out in all of it,
stay at a friends,
they'll take me.
party all night sleep all day.
thats always the way.
become the future of an owl.
what about school?
gotta go,
gotta get the education.
so i gotta get up,
i gotta truck it,
i gotta get to school somehow in the morning.
wake up,
get dressed and a quick eats
then hop in the truck and off to school
one less place no to hear the zilla
oh but wait
when i go home i hear it
a few hours later
she'll be home
planning and planning
bitching and bitching
when will it end
*gun shot*

I'll Be The One
By: Dru Hill

Intro:
I'll be the one I'll be the one

Verse 1:
I heard a rumor there's a vacancy Somebody said he put you down Seems he found pleasure in some other girl Baby, he's dogging you around So now yhou're looking for a special guy Someone that you can call your boo A man that cares about your feelings girl A man to just be good to you
Well

Chorus:
I'll be the one making you feel alright I'll be the one doing the things you like I'll be the one keeping you up at night I'll be the lover in your life I'll be the one you're gonna wanna call, yeah I'll be the one making you climb the walls I'll be the one gon' have you beggin' me I'll be the one, the one you need

Verse 2:
You gave him seven years of your life To think about it akes you cry Why don't you come with me I'll make it right Let's bump that nigga outta your mind Let's take a ride baby, no special place, yeah Somewhere where we can be alone, hey Take off our clothes and let our feelings flow I wanna groove you all night long I'll be the one

Chorus

Verse 3:
Here's the thing you should know about me, yeah Jazz is the man when it comes to ladies I know what I want Baby I'm keepin' it real, said real babe Ain't no him now that you're with me That's the way that it's gotta be
If you're down, then be down Don't be playin' around with my heart, oh no I'll be the one

Chorus

Outro:
I'll be the one I'll be the one

the most drama i got today was off of D because something fucked up/with her tblog and yahoo accounts and now she can no longer get into them. which sucks donkey balls. it does suck for her because she liked that account, it was just her.
well as for my mom she has the main aspects of her wedding planning done. meaning the table dinners and middle settings, center peices, where she wants the wedding (yes she has changed that but the date is still the same) she has hired a DJ for the day already. shes having the reception and wedding in the same place so her 200 guests dont have to travel. she has all that planned out already. now all she has to do is plan the rest of it. Anthony is a good helping out of this, he's really into it. which he should be, its gonna be his big day as well.
as for my sister, Kelly, she re-invents the phrase of "dumb blonde". shes the inevitable dumb blonde. i guess hopefully she'll grow out of it. do women or men, some men can take on the dumb blonde standard as well trust me i've seen it, ever grow out of it? i dont know. i guess we'll find out with time right?
well thats all for me for today PEACE YA'LL!!!

Holding You
By: Dru Hill

Verse 1: 
Damn Check it out I can't remember why we fell apart Or even how the arguments all start I got this crazy thought running through my head Mmmm, you keep insisting on convincing me that nothing's changed And keep on telling me I'm trippin' but it's not a game Cuz something's different when I'm in it, it don't feel the same I keep on picturing another nigga been hold-n-you

Chorus:
I feel somebody's been touch-n-you In fact I know somebody's been kissin' you Do you wanna tell me who's been love-n-you , love-n-you Hold-n-you, I don't know why I been trusting you Only did what I'm supposed to do
I don't know how I been such a fool for love-n-you

Verse 2:
It never really mattered too much to me I guess I was too blind and I could not see The message in the words that I heard you say Hmmm, that you're unhappy and you think you need some time away These things just happen but I know they don't happen that way I try and understand because I love you But I keep on thinking that another nigga been hold-n-you Check it out , check it out

Conversation:
C'mon, pick up the phone, Shelly
Hello
Yeah whatchu doin?
Sittin here thinking 'bout you boo
Oh, yeah? Did you think about me when you was with your girlfriends creepin?
What?
And you was at the club straight freaking
That wasn't me
What am I suppose to do Tell me how could you be thinking 'bout me I saw him in the bedroom baby
Whatever
I'm looking through the window, don't you play me
Hold up! Where you at?
Baby won't you tell the truth
I am
Cuz I ain't trippin' and I know that nigga been hold-n-you

Chorus

Bridge:
Why, why, why, tell me why, why Whoa why, why, why, why, why
Tell me why, why, why Holding you babe Yeah, shouldn'ta been trustin' you, yeah Whoa, I was your fool, yes I was Yes I was, yeah, oh I won't be your fool no more No more baby Oh, yeah Check it out, check it out